How to deconstruct your karma
Every single one of us on this planet is here to learn specific lessons which help us overcome our soul’s core wounds, and therefore allow us to reach our greatest potential. As I have said before, core wounds create life lessons and life lessons generate karma. And you do not have to posses a spiritual belief to believe in karma because it is simply cause and effect which is true no matter what specifics you may believe. It is up to us to identify the core wounds, work on them through the life lessons in order to overcome our karma/generational cycles of dysfunction. Until we do so, we will remain sick and stressed and not really know why.
Core wounds are the deepest hurts and aches that often appear to stem from childhood. Core wounds and lessons are the things we speak about in therapy with counselors and psychologists but can never find a way to truly “get over”. They are the story lines we feed ourselves that keep us small, stuck, and sick. They’re the place we subconsciously keep avoiding with illusions and distractions, in order to keep from feeling the depths of the pain.
Personally, I find pattern recognition to be one of the most therapeutic way to identify the wounds. Without recognizing the patterns, we will remain slaves to them and call it chance. This is one of the cruxes of my Energy Reading sessions — pattern recognition for the things you have experienced so that you can understand yourself and begin the healing process.
As you can see in the image above, if you want to figure out the long string of cause and effect in your life, you must first outline your fears/phobias, talents, problems, and hidden desires. It is a way to tap into the subconscious mind, which will be ruling your life until you become aware of it. Again, until we become aware of our subconscious mind, we will live a “cover story” in which we make choices for ourselves based on what other people desire for or from us, and we will be running from our fears and constantly recreating them instead of breaking the cycles, and we will also run from our talents instead of achieving self-actualization and our highest potential. Patterns will keep presenting themselves to you in the form of pain, phobias, longing and desires, and problems. It is up to us to recognize them and do something about it. This is how you become happy and healthy.
This is merely a guide — a brainstorming effort, if you will. Everyone’s karma will be vastly different. Though in my work over the last eight years, I know that there are themes that tend to run amongst disease groups.
Illnesses do not happen by mere chance, and genetics only play one role in the creation of disease. While we have been told there are no real known causes for disease or that it’s all a genetic Russian roulette, the truth is that diseases happen for a real reason and they happen in clusters. In other words, there may be tens or hundreds of contributing factors that have come together to create the disease state. The science of Epigentics tells us that what happens to you and inside of you affects the expression of your genes — cause and effect, cause and effect, cause and effect. Calling illness “chance” is a form of superstition and needs to be broken already. When you understand your karma, you will understand why you are sick.
Take thyroid disease, for example.
Common denominators in forms of hypothyroidism are almost always:
- Being neglected or feeling overlooked
- Getting quiet to appease others or avoid punishment
- Becoming a version of what other people want you to be
- Inhibitory responses
- Infections (localized or systemic)
- Throat pain or illnesses (recurrent infections, incessant coughing, pain while swallowing, etc.)
- Constant stream of external stressors and feeling little to no control over your life
- Overlooking relationship issues and quietly internalizing them
- Feeling unworthy
- Suppression of creativity
- Trauma to the throat/neck/mouth
Some people with thyroid disease have deep-seated fears of tight things around their necks such as jewelry, turtlenecks, seat belts, etc. Others have a fear of choking on food or drinks, or their throat closing/asphyxiation. Still others have a fear of being seen or public speaking and prefer to hide or remain in the background because they have learned when they do speak it is not accepted
You may not even be aware of these fears but once you start examining what you do, you can recognize the patterns. Some subconsciously avoid tight spaces with lots of people. Or maybe you only choose loose clothing that won’t hug your neck area. Maybe you put up with so much from the people around you that you feel you are at a breaking point and don’t know who you are anymore; your personality has become a vessel for others to control. Take your pick — there are many factors.
I’ll give you an example. Thyroid disease runs in my family and my grandmother had Graves’ (as well as many other terrible autoimmune conditions), and I have other family members with hypothyroidism, Hashimoto’s, or goiter. You could stop there and blame my 2007 diagnosis of Hashimoto’s Disease on genes, or you can trace the cause and effect back in time.
As a newborn, I was diagnosed with thrush. Then as an infant, I choked on a plum pit because I got too excited and shoved the whole fruit in my mouth (my father had to grab me my the feet and pelt my back while I was upside down in order to get it dislodged). I dealt with multiple ear, nose and throat infections every year for nearly 25 years (which of course required recurrent antibiotics). Though my mom and doctor tried to get me to swallow pills as a kid, I always ended up gagging on them and couldn’t figure out how to swallow correctly. As a kid, I took a hard fall on concrete and lost some baby teeth. I was a swim team member for many years and took in too much water at times (while being exposed to non-stop chlorine — a known thyroid suppressant). Growing up in a sect of the Southern Baptist church, I was silenced and shamed for sharing my thoughts; I learned to adapt and blend in in order to avoid being hurt by others, which required silence and pretending. I had close family members who were addicted to hard drugs and had to tiptoe around their moods. I was in abusive relationships in which I wasn’t allowed to make any decisions for myself (even choosing a table at a restaurant was not allowed). I had dental surgery in late 2006 and a few months later was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s. Throat, mouth, voice.
Can you see how much trauma one area of my body had endured for so many years? You are no different, but your specifics will be unique to you. After we understand what led up to the illness, we can find solutions to deconstruct it.
Deconstructing you is one of my favorite things to do and why I offer Energy Readings and Body Readings. You can start this brainstorming yourself and see what comes up for you.