Every day we are faced with choices — really, too many to count. Go this way or that, compromise here or be authentic there, ignore this or recognize that. In a world full of harsh realities and constant karmic consequences, the only thing consistent is change — and choice.
You see, we’re all living out storylines that existed long before our current reality. Actors playing our assumed roles, we live much of our lives in a semi-conscious state, unable or unwilling to face the reality of what we are truly dealing with. Characters who naturally fall into age-old patterns, much of what we experience is a projection of the past, and of unhealthy past cycles no one knew to break. Much of what we experience as empaths or highly sensitive people is a projection of the wills and desires of others and we have been conditioned to accept this in lieu of our own goals, self, and dreams. In a way, we have sold our selves or our souls (take your pick) to the whims of those who are more energetically powerful.
My main goal in providing the services I provide (such as Energy Reading sessions) is to highlight the problem areas in your relationships and life circumstances that are 100% affecting you but that you have never considered, despite feeling them on a physical and soul level, and despite others acting as if there are no problems whatsoever. For empaths and highly sensitive people, life isn’t just a venture into some unknown game of chance, not knowing why we are here, what the purpose behind it all is, and stumbling along; instead, life is a series of choices we are asked to make in order to self-actualize and finally stop repeating the same tired stories others have written us into. You know you have a significant purpose here; you feel it in your soul.
Changing the story (aka: karma) once and for all requires bravery: a fierce, unyielding courage in which you choose yourself and your life path above all others. We have been told choosing oneself is selfish. It isn’t. It is the bravest choice you will ever make because for empaths, it does not come naturally. It is what your intuition or higher power is consistently calling you to. Until you choose yourself, you will keep selling your soul for acceptance or ease.
You instinctively know when you are being asked, or required, to sell your soul. You feel it in your gut, your sex organs, your head. You feel the twinge of regret, the resentment, or frustration that you have been backed into a corner yet again, or that no one considered how what they are asking or demanding of you will affect you, or that you are the only one who recognizes and may have to address the problems. You get an adrenaline rush, you feel confused, you may feel alone or helpless. You try to find the words to express your dissatisfaction but quiet nods and yes’s are all that come out.
How many times a day do you feel this?
How many times in your life have you lived this?
This is the conditioning that we must undo. Compromises that direct you away from your life purpose are not healthy and certainly not for your greatest good here. There is a difference between healthy compromise in relationships in which you do not stand to lose your morals, ethics, personality, dreams, and internal compass, and that which completely steers you off course. You already know the difference. You feel it every time you are forced to make such a decision.
Narcissistic personalities have sold their souls long ago. They forgo true love, peace, and purpose for power, status, control, and trite social acceptance. They pursue external facades at the cost of their spirit. They choose the darkness while projecting the light. Their internal compass is so shattered, they may never find their way back to truth and goodness. You, on the other hand, have a chance and a choice here. You on the other hand, are able to tap into your internal compass and allow it to steer you back towards your true purpose, no matter which compromises you have made for the sake of others, for the sake of blending in, for the sake of not standing out or being targeted as different. You are never too far gone.
I think all great teachers, prophets, visionaries, and “saviors” have left bits and pieces of information for us to use as tools while on earth. We may read their words and think we have an understanding of what they meant, but usually the crux is something so much deeper and more actionable than we could have imagined. I don’t believe they wanted us to worship them, box their words into Sunday services, or create rituals around their teachings; they wanted us to live like them. These holy people developed strategies to stop the age-old pain cycles and shared their wisdom, for free.
In particular, this verse below rings so precisely true for those brave enough to confront their karma and change the storylines in which they have previously sold out to. If, like me, you grew up in church, you may have been given a different interpretation. But, if, like me, you would like to filter these words through a new lens that fits our times, think of karma, empathy vs. narcissism, and spiritual ascension into higher realms of consciousness when you read it:
If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake and for the gospel will save it. What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul?
If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself (ego) and take up his cross (karma) and follow me (into truth and goodness). For whoever (narcissists) wants to save his life (maintain external power or facades) will lose it (narcissism is being undone and good will prevail), but whoever (empaths) loses his life (letting go of facades we have subconsciously built; resolving karma) for My sake and for the gospel (light and goodness) will save it (personal and world peace). What does it profit a man to gain the whole world (ego power games), yet forfeit his soul (lose empathy)?
I repeat: Changing the story (aka: karma) once and for all requires bravery: a fierce, unyielding courage in which you choose yourself and your life path (aka the “gospel” according to your intuition or higher power) above all others.
Where your soul leads you will not be easy. Many times, it will not be fun. Most times, it will force you to let go of everything you have built your life upon. I describe it as the hardest thing you will ever do. It may feel like it could kill you. It is because the compromises have forced us to build our lives upon things that are not real, true, or good for us. And we cling so tightly to the facades because we desire comfort, ease, and familiarity. If you make the brave choice to undo your karma and finally learn your life lessons in order to resolve your core wounds (and therefore self-actualize to your greatest potential), you will lose everything. Your worst fears will be realized. There is no other way around it.
Everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.
The beauty in undoing your karma is that on the other side of the sand house is the rock — the solid, steady foundation which you build your entire life upon truth and reality as you go forward, not comprised integrity, not falsehood or false hope. You have to unravel before you have a blank slate or clean foundation upon which to build. Afterwards, though, you cannot be moved because you will never want to sell your soul again.