Being talked out of ourselves is nothing new. In fact, it is as old as time itself. Throughout history, systems have been set in place to keep people from processing and digesting what is truly happening to them and around them, in order for others to maintain control. You intuitively understand the truth but are talked out of it — or talk yourself out of it. Monarchs, politicians, employers, teachers, police, parents, and religious figures have told us what is real even when the reality of life is something so much more vast, sometimes derelict, hidden, “magical,” or incredulous. Only years or decades later, do we learn the truth behind the false storylines we have been fed and then question why no one told us the truth (or saw it for themselves) in the first place. Often we are gripped with regret for not trusting ourselves or fighting hard enough for what we “knew” was right all along but were talked out of.
Finding the truth is important to me, likely as it is to you, and I feel driven to help people understand how to uncover the truths that have remained hidden and suppressed for generations, but also learn to instinctively trust yourself based on your gut reactions to situations you find yourself in. In doing so, you liberate yourself from the false realities of the 3-dimensional world that are keeping you stressed and sick and unable to be the authentic expression of yourself that you were born to be. In trusting the truth and learning to tune into your intuition, you are able to rid yourself of old stories and attitudes that no longer serve you, and you are able to recognize the ills of the world and take action to remedy them instead of quietly waiting for someone else to do it. You are able to tap into the fifth dimension, or angelic realms, where only truth exists. When we recognize the truth, we all become better people. When you recognize your truth, you become the person you were born to be. There is no greater gift.
I believe we are living in a time in which understanding the truth is of great importance, but it is also a difficult task. Everywhere we look are public relations campaigns disguised as unbiased information, social media and television distracting us from our true purpose here, world leaders feeding us the “palatable” version of events, smear campaigns that happen in a split second because someone had an opinion the masses didn’t like, and there is a near-constant finger-wagging and public shaming for those who think for themselves. Planet Earth is rife with systems of judgment and punishment, and we have all been asked to “play a part” to avoid the shame of being a free-thinker. In fact, these things are nothing new, as I hope to show you in this book, but now it is certainly intensifying.
Because of the great feminine awakening ascension process Earth is currently undergoing, karma is finally catching up with people who have acted out illegal or immoral behaviors but were never brought to justice. In fact, karma is coming for us all. While it’s disheartening to see how many injustices have been committed, it is absolutely thrilling to see the undoing of evil before our very eyes. Truly, no one is safe from the skeletons of the past seeking them out until the truth is exposed, believed, honored, and rectified. This should be an exciting time for you too. There is finally a foothold upon which to act and to become unabashedly intuitive. While intuitives have been punished in the past for their gifts, more and more people are opening themselves up to holistic spirituality and alternative health practices. More women and children are finding their voices. More victims are coming forward to say “yes, me too.” The hopeful are rising against the hopeless, the empaths against the narcissists, and the brave helpers are finding their place in the world despite the fear. The seal has been broken, and unpleasant truths are coming to the surface to be dealt with finally. Those who are intuitive and, therefore, able to perceive the truth will have an edge in this planetary awakening and ascension.
When we don’t believe the reality of what we have seen, lived, and felt, or when we are consistently talked out of it, we can become paralyzed with self-doubt, insecurity, resentment, anger, frustration, despair, and physical ailments. Cognitive dissonance — that is, the state of having inconsistent thoughts, beliefs, or attitudes that we have a difficult time integrating — acts as a cloud over our daily life and keeps us small, sick, subservient, feeling chaotic and directionless. You may wonder if your life has a purpose and question why you are here to begin with — and this is no way to live. I say this because I have been there. In fact, for thirty-two years of my life I lived in the false realities that others created for me, and I obeyed in order for other people to remain comfortable. I did everything I could not to rock the boat, and they did everything they could to keep us all blind. Only when I became utterly physically and emotionally sick did I stand up and say “no more — we all need to face reality.” If they weren’t going to join me, I would go at it alone.
Becoming intuitive is a process, a bit like peeling back the layers of an onion. You have to “peel back” things that prevent you from tapping into your gut instincts: abuse and trauma, wounds, lessons left unlearned, projections, societal programming, negative mindsets, physical ailments, fear of going against the groupthink, and more. If you go into this process understanding that there are many layers that require being stripped away, it won’t feel so laborious. That’s not to say it will feel easy, but you also can’t expect it to happen overnight. Becoming intuitive requires we surrender our whole selves to the greater good that the Universe desires for us. In order to become beneficiaries of that greater good, we have to release that which is evil, painful, and wrong. Whatever has been done to us, to humanity as a whole, or that we have done to others and ourselves must be repaired. We can only peel one layer at a time and shouldn’t be hard on ourselves if that peeling takes a few weeks, a few months, or a few years. It takes as long as it needs to take.
See, in order to perceive the truth, you must take a step back and interpret all that you have experienced in your life. You must begin to look at the world as though everything has meaning and is a piece of a greater puzzle you are here to solve. If you live as though life should be a straight line to the top, then you will miss the clues. Only when you are observant enough and reflective enough to process the “oddities” you have lived can you begin making associations about what it all means. In other words, if you don’t understand there is a rhyme and reason — a system, if you will — you will never be able to overcome the system. You will never be able to see that you have been asleep most of your life (in fact, we all have been) or why you were forced into an amnesic state in the first place. Becoming intuitive not only teaches you there is rich meaning in life but that nothing happens by chance, and it is all connected to a larger system that we had no clue we are participants in.
This book is a labor of love and stems from the darkest pains I have experienced in life. Undoubtedly you too have felt such pain and want to understand once and for all what life really is beyond the veil of falsehood. You deserve the truth because the truth is truly what sets us free. I firmly believe that intuition is inborn into each one of us. For many, it is a divine gift that has been wrongfully taken away through mental and physical abuses, or just plain old ignorance and apathy. The good news is, intuition is accessible to us all, and with the correct guidance and information, you can tap into it once more. Once you trust your intuition and firmly stick with it, you will be amazed at how your life begins to change for the better and how your actions affect change in your community and the world.
I have been channelling messages from the other side for decades — as long as I could write, really, but didn’t understand it was a divine gift that I needed to share with the world until a few years ago. Words flowed through me and I got sudden bursts of inspiration that had such loving, powerful, higher perspectives and tones that I knew it wasn’t coming from me. After years of suppression, I had become so stressed and sick from my highly empathic and intuitive nature that I eventually had to publicly “come out” as an Intuitive Healer and begin pursuing it professionally not to be sickened by suppressing it anymore. I had to let my intuition reign free. In fact, this book has been channeled and I have to thank those from the other side who offered me words and inspiration to collect these ideas in one place for the benefit of others. This wasn’t something I necessarily wanted to publish; it was something I needed to publish.
As a child, I remember asking myself, “What is real? What is reality?” I wanted more than anything to know what was real in this world. I didn’t know what was real because the things I innately felt were true, right, and good were not what the people around me chose to live out and act on. I felt I was bad, wrong, and crazy because I just couldn’t force myself to believe what others did. I played along quite well and was a perfect student, a quiet daughter, and a subservient Christian but the things I was taught never sat well with me despite how hard I worked to believe them. I tried to force my mind to behave like other people’s but it just couldn’t; it was too painful and all of the subconscious problems I internalized over the years eventually became physical health problems.
I can recall how tense my body became at each family gathering as I watched my mother, father, grandparents, and aunts and uncles pretend everything in our lives was fine — great in fact — despite the longstanding and unspoken feuds, gossip, and pain. For those few hours over a holiday meal or birthday cake, we would feign all was well with our world and awkwardly make as much surface-level conversation as we could. But no amount of syrupy icing, angel food cake, questions about how school was going, and compliments on the meal could hide the underlying static electricity I felt at the words not being said. The frenetic stress exploded into my core at the reality no one wanted to acknowledge. Why were we all lying, and how long could we pretend? Why didn’t anyone choose to acknowledge or work through these problems? Was this pretending reality, or was reality a world in which there are no problems? I couldn’t decide.
When you start to deconstruct the falsehoods you have lived, be aware — you may have to go at it alone. Not everyone is ready to see reality for what it really is. You may upset others, become a scapegoat, be ostracized or isolated. You may begin to feel very lonely as if no one else is on the journey with you. This is normal because number one, people actively work to suppress problems (aka the truth) because confronting it and working through it is an utterly difficult experience. In fact, acknowledging one’s problems, or karma, is akin to opening Pandora’s box; you have no idea what kind of chaos and destruction will fly out at you. Also, no one else can truly be on your journey with you. It is yours alone because your experiences are unique to you. No one else has lived the situations that are leading you to the perceptions and conclusions about which direction you should go in, and even if you try to explain your truth to other people, they likely won’t value it as you do or take it seriously because they haven’t lived it. Since intuition is acquired through the process of living, others haven’t felt the nuances or momentum behind your experiences. This is okay, so long as you keep trusting yourself.
Famous psychoanalyst Carl G. Jung writes, “The fact that a man who goes his own way ends in ruin means nothing… He must obey his own law, as if it were a daemon whispering to him of new and wonderful paths… There are not a few who are called awake by the summons of the voice, whereupon they are at once set apart from the others, feeling confronted with a problem about which the others know nothing. In most cases it is impossible to explain to the others what has happened, for any understanding is walled off by impenetrable prejudices. ‘You are no different from anybody else,’ they will chorus or, ‘there’s no such thing,’ and even if there is such a thing, it is immediately branded as ‘morbid’… He is at once set apart and isolated, as he has resolved to obey the law that commands him from within. ‘His own law!’ everybody will cry. But he knows better: it is the law… The only meaningful life is a life that strives for the individual realization — absolute and unconditional — of its own particular law… To the extent that a man is untrue to the law of his being… he has failed to realize his own life’s meaning.”
When I admitted I was an Intuitive and had not been trusting my own intuition but wanted to start, my life fell apart in the best way possible. It is likely yours will as well. All of the facades and false realities I had clung to in order to be compliant, stay small and well-liked, seem normal, and not force anyone else to take a look in the mirror suddenly came crashing down — and with a huge, loud, public bang! On my thirty-second birthday on a family vacation to Hawaii, I sat alone on a lounge chair looking up at the sky. I watched from the rental house deck as the tropical trees swayed back and forth, and bright red birds chattered to and fro. I looked up to the Universe and thought, “You have gotten me this far. Whatever you want me to do, I’ll do it.” I was hoping there was a higher power who could hear me, but in all honesty, I didn’t expect there to be any return on that silent commitment.
At that time, I considered myself agnostic and mainly used my intuitive abilities to generate very detailed personalized nutritional plans for clients as a Certified Holistic Health Coach. I had an uncanny ability to listen to the symptoms they described and connect it back to specific food sensitivities and nutrient deficiencies that no doctor was able to elucidate. As a result, many of my clients were able to put their symptoms — or illness itself — into remission as I had several years prior with my Hashimoto’s Disease. I called it “nutritional detective work” and a “second opinion approach” at the time and felt my intuition was more logical than spiritual. I did dabble in life coaching as well and spoke at length with clients about the stress in their lives and always tried connecting it back to a wound that presented within the person. However, I never would have anticipated where that little vow to the sky would land me: in a world of metaphysics, past lives, karma, empaths and energy vampires, chakra balancing, soul contracts, and channeled messages. That day on my birthday (Groundhog’s Day), I suspected I had a greater purpose that I should begin living out. I stepped out publicly as an Intuitive Healer, began offering Energy Readings, and changed the course of my life forever.
After my public “outing,” the family I was vacationing with immediately distanced themselves from me. I felt their underlying disappointment and tension at the admission of my abilities. I had always been quiet. I had always observed. Now they knew why. They spoke around me but no longer to me. I received dirty looks and curt responses. About a week later, the bulk of my karma came rushing at me. When I returned home from the trip, I was met with public shaming, gossip, and smear campaigns from friends and acquaintances alike. I realized many of these relationships had never been healthy, and the true nature of our dynamics could no longer be suppressed. As such, I relived abusive karmic past life scenarios and understood the people I knew in the present had all played a very significant role in my past and, therefore, my present-day wounding. I was losing love from nearly everyone I knew because I had admitted to the truth of my soul. My ego was in the process of dying, and I saw the world for what it really was, not what I’d always hoped it would be.
More notably, for the first time in my life, I began having supernatural contact and understood that we are indeed infinite spiritual beings capable of having otherworldly experiences. In fact, after I stepped out in faith as an Intuitive, I was immensely humbled when I had a supernatural soulmate spark in the eye with a man I did not know and instantly fell in love with him — and he with me. I remembered his soul and our past lives together and shared an immediate telepathic connection with him. I had met my soulmate when I least expected it, when I wasn’t looking, and when it was the wrong timing for both of us. The divine didn’t care about interrupting the lives we had built or how taboo our love would come to be in the eyes of others; it cared about eternal truth, and for better or worse, the truth came rushing at both of us.
This spark-in-the-eye moment also forced me to remember my soul’s purpose as if a blueprint had been revealed to me. I received intuitive images, began to see omens, saw evil flashes of light come from two karmic partner’s eyes, and had two angels present themselves to me for protection. I had learned that truth is truly stranger than fiction. I had been given my true life’s path, and the divine was assisting to show the rhyme and reason behind it all. “Remember how you’ve done this before?” these situations told me. “Don’t you want to do it differently this time?” the divine directed me. Prior to this, I didn’t know the supernatural was real or care if it was. Now it was staring me down. I had promised to do what the Universe wanted. I came to find, it wanted me to resolve my karma, and in doing so, teach myself and others how to step into our dharma.
What we see in the 3D realm of existence is so limited. Once we open up and trust the divine, the possibilities are endless and you will begin to understand the world in a new way. You see, once you start trusting your higher self or higher power, you begin the process of ascension in which you shed your ego, release your karma, access higher spiritual realities, pursue your dharma — your true life’s path — and begin seeing or feeling other dimensions (such as the fourth and fifth). Truly, in trusting your intuition, magical, serendipitous experiences will begin to unfold all around you. This is a precious gift, but also please understand — there generally is no turning back. It is a life mission that you sign up for once you begin trusting yourself, your experiences, and perceptions about the world and break through the facades others have created for you. It is as if your old life dies and you have to be reborn. The death process is as painful as the rebirth.
In fact, I would call becoming intuitive the hardest life process of them all. It drudges up old personal wounds and unresolved lessons that are often our deepest fears (though this is purposeful and good in the big picture, as I will explain). It calls forth generational archetypes that have consistently worked to harm humanity, which are difficult for any one person to come up against. It also forces you to develop an entirely new self-image — a healthy one in which you are not attached to nor define yourself based on the lies of the ego. You can no longer be “the good girl,” “the quiet one,” “the fun one,” “the loud one,” or “the serious one.” You have to release all categorizations and limitations you or others have placed on you because these are not who you really are. They are just the roles you have been asked to play, but they are not a true expression of your soul. The soul is timeless and cannot be chained by human labels. Not only will this book teach you how to access and live from your intuition, it will also help you recognize such patterns, wounds, and lessons in order to break the cycles and become who you really are.
I feel compelled to help those starting out on this journey understand what they will be giving up and the consequences of trusting yourself — because yes, there are many. It is a process of total surrender. You cannot suddenly choose to become less intuitive after months or years of trusting yourself. You have to bow down to the process and allow it to flow through you. Life will change, and you will be asked — or forced — to process what you have avoided for many years. Things that no longer serve you will be stripped away, sometimes slowly but sometimes quickly and without warning. You may experience great cognitive dissonance about the magic that exists all around us but has remained hidden in your life until now. Or you may feel frustration over the lies that keep persisting and the people who choose to forgo the truth. Becoming intuitive requires we die to our old selves and rebuild from a soul-centered place rather than an ego-driven place. It is a coming home to who you really are, and this will certainly disrupt relationships, jobs, and your own identity.
Again, once you begin to see truths, you cannot unsee them and the only way forward is through them. But on the other side of this pain is an immense beauty and joy. It is the magical gift of you and your divine purpose. By finally saying “yes” to yourself, you will forever shift the course of your world for the better. You own up to the reality of who you are and who you can become. That is ultimately what we are here for and it is your divine birthright. You may also inspire others to start trusting their intuition and remove the mask of inauthenticity. Imagine a world where we all acted from a place that invokes our greatest good. Personal and interpersonal peace are possible and becoming intuitive is a way to achieve this.
We must also view our intuition as a precious gift that deserves humble use and protection. Being able to see what is really happening beneath the mask is a present. This means we need to undergo the process of becoming intuitive with great respect for the power bestowed to us. We should never use it to harm others unless we need to fight back as a form of self-protection or fight for the greater good. We should use it to help ourselves, help others — should they ask, and help the world become a more peaceful place. We must learn to carefully discern which situations would benefit from us speaking from our intuition and which situations need time to work themselves out. Again, not everyone wants the truth, and that is up to them to make that decision; we cannot make it for them. All of the great ascended masters and prophets also used this gift wisely. They spoke the truth when it was needed, but they did not use it for control or fame. They used peaceful, loving, firm means to get the point across — and yes, sometimes they became angry at the falsehoods and lies. We must learn to do the same.
Please don’t be scared, and I hope you still choose to continue forward in this journey. I simply want you to be prepared and understand that things may temporarily feel worse before they feel better. This is the basis of any legitimate healing process. It is necessary to till the soil before planting the seeds. It is necessary to burn off the dead parts before the living can flourish. Even when things don’t go your way, you can remain steadfast in yourself and find ultimate joy. On the other side of the changes and the pain is truth. On the other side is your intuition.
© Liz Schau 2019, All Rights Reserved
Despite being told we “don’t know” why diseases happen or they only happen as a result of a shitty genetic Russian roulette, the truth is that illnesses come about for numerous external and internal reasons according to the individual’s gene mutations, experiences, core wounds, health history, chakra imbalances or karma, chemical exposure, and more. Therefore, the specific diet a person should be eating will vary according to this personalized history. It is why, although I believe there are dietary practices or theories that are in many ways superior to a standard western diet, there is truly no one-sized-fits-all approach. Who you are determines what you should be eating, not the other way around.
This is the standard I have held myself to over the last 8 years while directing clients in comprehensive nutritional plans. You are unique, your diet should be equally unique. Unfortunately, we are saturated with programs, books, classes, and internet experts telling us there is only one perfect diet (Paleo, Autoimmune Paleo, Keto, Vegan, etc etc). Will you trust your body or will you trust these money-making schemes?
Like I said, there are certain nutrition practices I think we should all to a large degree adopt (unless there is a specific contraindication for you personally). Take, for example, the fact that indigenous cultures and peoples instinctively understood things about food that our modern society overlooks and takes for granted: food should be consumed in its whole forms, it should come directly from the earth, it should be organic and unsprayed or not irradiated, and that you should consume what is local and available to you.
Another principle that transcends time and peoples worldwide is the idea that every meal should contain a raw or fermented food that is rich in enzymes. In Eastern Europe, we see this practice as the dollop of sour cream on the soup or the raw butter on toast; in Latino societies, we see it as the unpasteurized alcohol or fresh condiments consumed with food (tepache, chicha, salsas, curtido); in Asian cultures we see it as the fermented vegetables added to meals or used as side dishes (banchan, for example). These traditions are not “primitive”, they are ancient wisdom that should be respected.
You see, enzymes aide in digestion and not only help your digestive tract to break down foods so they do not end up as inflammatory immune threats, they also help the kidneys and liver in processing foods. Enzymes can also be called life force or energy: they are living and alive and killed by cooking processes. Energy isn’t just about picking up the bad attitudes of others when you walk into a room, it is about what you intake in other ways, including what you eat.
When you eat dead foods, your body has to compensate for the lack of enzymes or water that would normally be found in unprocessed foods. Over time, this creates a deficit that forces your digestive tract, kidneys, and liver to work extra hard. Imagine the consequences of a lifetime of eating foods with no life force. Think back to how many modern meals we eat that are completely dead and devoid of any enzymes: fried potatoes, meats, pizza, pasteurized dairy, roasted vegetables, rice, bread, and on and on. While many of these foods can be healthy when sourced from quality purveyors, or when prepared in certain ways (grass-fed burgers, for example), they are still dead and force your body into an energetic deficit.
Another way I’ve heard “life force” interpreted when it comes to food is this: the kind of food you eat, when, how, and at which pace, affects how you feel afterwards. For example, you will feel differently eating a salad versus a bowl of pasta. One will probably leave you feeling light and energized afterwards, and one will leave you feeling stuffed, lethargic, and ready for a nap.
In nutrition school, I also learned that coming together for a meal is about more than a social gathering; it is also an exchange of energy between the people sharing the food. Sure, you will get to talk, enjoy the people you are with, and get energized (or, perhaps, brought down) by their personal energy, but you will also end up collectively feeling the same way afterwards if you all eat the same thing. It’s one reason we congregate for meals: to get into a kind of positive groupthink with family or friends. This is in large part due to the fact that if you are sharing one big meal rather than everyone ordering something different so you will likely have similar blood sugar responses, levels of satiety, and therefore the same energy during and afterwards. On the flip side, we also know that having inhibitory responses (ie: getting stressed, nervous, holding back, being ashamed, etc) slows down the thyroid immediately and prevents thyroid hormone from being released, which aides in digestion. Food brings people together for many reasons, and energy is one of them.
My nutrition school professor also described the energetics of food with this example: a famous and highly sensitive Japanese nutrition expert (a leader in the Macrobiotics movement) was so energetically sensitive he could always feel the energy with which the food he was eating was prepared. So once, a man tried to purposefully trick him to see what his interpretation of the food “energy” would be. This chef danced around the kitchen, clapping his hands, yelling, jumping up and down as he cooked. When the food arrived to the table, the nutrition expert took a few bites and said he was very confused with what had been done to this food. While it tasted delicious, he said the energy was chaotic and crazy and couldn’t understand what had happened while it was cooking. Despite not being in the kitchen while it was cooking, he knew something was “off”.
If you are a highly sensitive person, you may not feel the food life force quite to this degree, but your body will likely internalize it and it could stimulate or sedate you based on who prepared it and the emotion with which it was prepared. Now think about what happens when you go out to eat: the food you’re eating may be prepared by a worker who doesn’t particularly care for their job, slaps the meal together in a hurry with little love or care, and gets it to the table as quickly as possible. It’s one reason home cooked food tastes so good and we crave holiday gatherings or food from the “mother”: most likely, she put her heart and soul into it and prepared it with love.
The takeaway here is that you are an energetic being with constant energetic requirements. You must in-put good energetic sources of food, and be surrounded by positive energy while eating in order to aide the digestive tract and other vital organs.
Every single one of us on this planet is here to learn specific lessons which help us overcome our soul’s core wounds, and therefore allow us to reach our greatest potential. As I have said before, core wounds create life lessons and life lessons generate karma. And you do not have to posses a spiritual belief to believe in karma because it is simply cause and effect which is true no matter what specifics you may believe. It is up to us to identify the core wounds, work on them through the life lessons in order to overcome our karma/generational cycles of dysfunction. Until we do so, we will remain sick and stressed and not really know why.
Core wounds are the deepest hurts and aches that often appear to stem from childhood. Core wounds and lessons are the things we speak about in therapy with counselors and psychologists but can never find a way to truly “get over”. They are the story lines we feed ourselves that keep us small, stuck, and sick. They’re the place we subconsciously keep avoiding with illusions and distractions, in order to keep from feeling the depths of the pain.
Personally, I find pattern recognition to be one of the most therapeutic way to identify the wounds. Without recognizing the patterns, we will remain slaves to them and call it chance. This is one of the cruxes of my Energy Reading sessions — pattern recognition for the things you have experienced so that you can understand yourself and begin the healing process.
As you can see in the image above, if you want to figure out the long string of cause and effect in your life, you must first outline your fears/phobias, talents, problems, and hidden desires. It is a way to tap into the subconscious mind, which will be ruling your life until you become aware of it. Again, until we become aware of our subconscious mind, we will live a “cover story” in which we make choices for ourselves based on what other people desire for or from us, and we will be running from our fears and constantly recreating them instead of breaking the cycles, and we will also run from our talents instead of achieving self-actualization and our highest potential. Patterns will keep presenting themselves to you in the form of pain, phobias, longing and desires, and problems. It is up to us to recognize them and do something about it. This is how you become happy and healthy.
This is merely a guide — a brainstorming effort, if you will. Everyone’s karma will be vastly different. Though in my work over the last eight years, I know that there are themes that tend to run amongst disease groups.
Illnesses do not happen by mere chance, and genetics only play one role in the creation of disease. While we have been told there are no real known causes for disease or that it’s all a genetic Russian roulette, the truth is that diseases happen for a real reason and they happen in clusters. In other words, there may be tens or hundreds of contributing factors that have come together to create the disease state. The science of Epigentics tells us that what happens to you and inside of you affects the expression of your genes — cause and effect, cause and effect, cause and effect. Calling illness “chance” is a form of superstition and needs to be broken already. When you understand your karma, you will understand why you are sick.
Take thyroid disease, for example.
Common denominators in forms of hypothyroidism are almost always:
- Being neglected or feeling overlooked
- Getting quiet to appease others or avoid punishment
- Becoming a version of what other people want you to be
- Inhibitory responses
- Infections (localized or systemic)
- Throat pain or illnesses (recurrent infections, incessant coughing, pain while swallowing, etc.)
- Constant stream of external stressors and feeling little to no control over your life
- Overlooking relationship issues and quietly internalizing them
- Feeling unworthy
- Suppression of creativity
- Trauma to the throat/neck/mouth
Some people with thyroid disease have deep-seated fears of tight things around their necks such as jewelry, turtlenecks, seat belts, etc. Others have a fear of choking on food or drinks, or their throat closing/asphyxiation. Still others have a fear of being seen or public speaking and prefer to hide or remain in the background because they have learned when they do speak it is not accepted
You may not even be aware of these fears but once you start examining what you do, you can recognize the patterns. Some subconsciously avoid tight spaces with lots of people. Or maybe you only choose loose clothing that won’t hug your neck area. Maybe you put up with so much from the people around you that you feel you are at a breaking point and don’t know who you are anymore; your personality has become a vessel for others to control. Take your pick — there are many factors.
I’ll give you an example. Thyroid disease runs in my family and my grandmother had Graves’ (as well as many other terrible autoimmune conditions), and I have other family members with hypothyroidism, Hashimoto’s, or goiter. You could stop there and blame my 2007 diagnosis of Hashimoto’s Disease on genes, or you can trace the cause and effect back in time.
As a newborn, I was diagnosed with thrush. Then as an infant, I choked on a plum pit because I got too excited and shoved the whole fruit in my mouth (my father had to grab me my the feet and pelt my back while I was upside down in order to get it dislodged). I dealt with multiple ear, nose and throat infections every year for nearly 25 years (which of course required recurrent antibiotics). Though my mom and doctor tried to get me to swallow pills as a kid, I always ended up gagging on them and couldn’t figure out how to swallow correctly. As a kid, I took a hard fall on concrete and lost some baby teeth. I was a swim team member for many years and took in too much water at times (while being exposed to non-stop chlorine — a known thyroid suppressant). Growing up in a sect of the Southern Baptist church, I was silenced and shamed for sharing my thoughts; I learned to adapt and blend in in order to avoid being hurt by others, which required silence and pretending. I had close family members who were addicted to hard drugs and had to tiptoe around their moods. I was in abusive relationships in which I wasn’t allowed to make any decisions for myself (even choosing a table at a restaurant was not allowed). I had dental surgery in late 2006 and a few months later was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s. Throat, mouth, voice.
Can you see how much trauma one area of my body had endured for so many years? You are no different, but your specifics will be unique to you. After we understand what led up to the illness, we can find solutions to deconstruct it.
Deconstructing you is one of my favorite things to do and why I offer Energy Readings and Body Readings. You can start this brainstorming yourself and see what comes up for you.