Reclaiming your true identity

As the reality around us continues to implode, as the truth is exposed in record time, those on the ascension journey find more and more falsehoods to shed: the lies you have been told about yourself, the abuse you endured, the many times you questioned but were told to stop asking (or speaking). If little here has every made sense to you, that’s a good sign.

You have been born into a constructed reality. At birth, you were assigned a role to play, according to your parents’ or caregivers’ desires. Yes, you were given a name and gender, a weight and length, but also, as you grew, you were taught who you are and who you can become. You were told what you like, what to eat, how assertively or softly to speak, what to wear, how smart you are as well as your perceived aptitude or talents, whom to love or marry, which religion to choose, where to live, and on and on.

Nearly everyone else in your family, group, tribe, or community fit into these expectations so seamlessly you wondered why you’ve had trouble doing the same. There has always existed a void between these expectations and who you really are. Your true self became a dirty little secret, hidden deep within the recesses of your subconscious mind.

When you did not obey the orders you were assigned at birth, you were spanked, shamed, chastised, neglected, or isolated. You were told how wrong or terrible you are. You were reminded how unlike everyone else you are, and if you wanted love or success, you must obey the orders. For some, far worse punishment ensued as soon as they made a decision for themselves, including physical beatings, rape, extreme mental duress, and for some, even death.

You became more and more frustrated or dejected at the person you have been forced to become versus the person you feel you inherently are. Few have ever asked who you actually are deep inside of your soul, and indeed, if they knew the truth of who you secretly are, you feel they would reject or bully you altogether. It is as if there is some secret inside of your soul that makes you set apart from the rest, as if you are a stranger in a strange land. The physical body may be acclimated to this place but your soul never has.

The next big step is releasing the identities you were assigned, in both this lifetime and others. As I write about in my book, How to Become Intuitive, the soul cannot be chained by human labels. Your soul always was and your soul always will be. The ascended masters came to teach us this lesson, namely, you are not your body and you don’t die after you die; you go on. To where you go on is up to you.

Imagine being reincarnated lifetime after lifetime and bring forced to become who society, the state, and your caregivers, friends or family wanted you to be. Imagine what you were forced to do just to survive. Imagine ignoring your own soul each time in order to fly under the radar and not be punished, or to live and eat and have shelter. To fit in. Imagine how much subconscious programming you would accumulate that must be cleared. This is the job of those ascending. This is the soul roll call you received some time ago: to finally figure out who you actually are.

Think of it like an inverse reaction: as more cover ups and lies are exposed to the public, the greater insight you have about the truth. The truth of yourself, of others, and of why you are here. As one gets worse, the other gets better. As one become more chaotic, the other becomes more clear. You can utilize the principle of the opposite to finally perceive the truth.

It is safe to completely give up your false identity. The one others assigned you that has nothing to do with who you actually are; your human persona that appeased but did not fulfill you. Once you shed this, few will see your real self. They won’t be able to recognize it because they don’t even recognize it for themselves. But some will. And you will. It’s okay to become the higher self and identify as such. The you that is separate from all wounding, physical limitations, judgments from others, and instruction is who you really are. What if you stopped caring what others want you to be and started living as an infinite being within the system? You would be free of your karma and your soul will be able to go on after this constructed reality collapses.

How to translate and understand narcopath-ese

Narcissists speak a language unto themselves. An empathic person born into this world will not innately understand it and therefore feel confused, left out, and weird for not speaking the language of the general population. You may always be worried who will try to play “gotcha” next and how you will respond, interpret their meaning, or defend yourself.

Once you understand the basics of how these people operate you can easily translate their meanings in order to not only understand their real intention and find clarity for yourself, but also be able to predict what they will do next based on their true meanings and intentions.

You have to keep in mind that language is not only acquired through memorization, observation and immersion, or acquiring it as a native speaker. Language is also an energy that can be felt. The words that come out of one’s mouth do not necessarily reflect the language they are speaking. You must feel for what they are actually saying, based on the energy of intention they are putting off. You can feel in order to translate.

Here’s what you want to keep in mind:

  1. Narcissists and sociopaths speak in reverse. A healthy person starts with telling the truth and then observes any lies as a result of the truth. A “narcopath” will tell the lies first and wait to see the reaction of those listening.
  2. They obfuscate their lies by making them appear to be truths. While telling the lie, they rely on appeals to truth, peace, equality, justice, and harmony. Think of it as two opposing currents. One, on top, is what they think everyone wants to hear in order to prevent exposing themselves. The other current, beneath that, is the truth they tell in a backwards way so that it becomes a riddle one has to figure out.
  3. They also obfuscate their meaning via nostalgia or other appeals to emotions. They make you sentimental for the past, despite the past being hellish. They make you fearful for the future without them. So people keep repeating the past, seeking the feeling of love or connectedness that has been promised to them by the narc.
  4. Their words and actions always betray each other.
  5. They create incentives or reward people for supporting and upholding the narc’s statements. They place supporters on a pedestal so the rest of society yearns to be recognized and idolized as they are. The elites of the world are some of the most insecure human beings. They project elitism but they worship the head narc in order to feel worthy themselves because it is not generated from within.

Here’s a little translation from last night’s 2020 State of the Union address:

Freedom unifies the soul” = We pretend you are free but take your rights or make you pay for or earn basic rights so that your souls are always at odds with each other in class warfare. You are not free or unified. Freedom unifies the soul, which is why we will never give it to you.

We will always protect patients with preexisting conditions” = if being an energetic slave made you sick, its okay, we’ll still let you pay for health care. We won’t cut off your rights because you were a bad example to others by showing them what the system does to a person’s body and soul. You are still allowed to pay for over-priced help. We will continue to make money off of you, don’t worry.

Stanctuary” = greatest Freudian slip of the night. Immigrants are beneath me.

Simply put, backwards language does not make sense. It requires you decode it in order to understand and have the upper hand. And this is why empathic people have never felt at home here or understood this place. Everything is backwards, including how narcs communicate.

Channeled messages 02/03/2020

On your original present-lifetime wound and your narcissistic parent(s)’ role in it: You have to go back to your original wound in this present lifetimes. It either early trauma (what a baby or young child would consider traumatic, not what an adult would), or attachment problems, or a mixture of the two. You have to discover what your original belief about yourself was, based on what your parents or caregivers reinforced. What is the statement? If you cannot figure it out, test your subconscious mind by reciting various possible statements. When you come to the correct answer, it will feel like an aha! moment and you may feel physically and energetically lighter.

As a child, you would do anything to survive. Narcs are incapable of helping anything to grow or expand, so if your caregivers were narcissistic, you were in constant states of biological stress because you worried you would die. So you learned to do whatever the parent wanted in order to ensure your survival. Imagine what would happen if you went against your parent, the person who kept you alive as an infant and child. Imagine you trying to fend for your survival by always keeping them happy. You came to believe you are bad and they must be kept happy at all times or you will die. This is how the ego programming begins each lifetime. You must overcome the original parental belief wound in this lifetime. Go back to the source: Handlers.

Narcs talk over and guide their children in conversation to make themselves look like fit parents. They smile and act loving or jovial but it’s just to control the child in order to control the other adults perception. So the child learns to vouch for the handler. Then they find a spouse who requires the same because this is what they were taught love was. It feels familiar. So the empaths are kept in a hypnotic painful response as a result and this creates cognitive dissonance between their conscious and subconscious minds. This is what differentiates and creates the duality of the mind: conscious and subconscious. This is why you feel you are two people: one deep inside who you really are and one every one has told you to be (or you face punishment). 

Digging into the subconscious mind means liberating the trauma so that it is no longer a junk storage facility. So that everything, conscious and subconscious, aka your perception and theirs, is no longer separate, only one being believed and one being a dirty little secret.

On subconscious cues from narcs: Narcs and the double blink: when making eye contact with narcs they will do a double blink or blink then look to their right and down (indicative of accessing the part of the brain that makes things up and improvises or plots) when your soul comes shining through your eyes. It’s like they talk themselves out of seeing it. It’s like they don’t want you to see that they can see who you really are. Or, you said something that upset their ego so they took it as a slight. That means you’re in for it. You usurped their power or reminded them you see through them.

Their punishment for this is in your third Chakra. Fear and anxiety and pain burning pain. It’s how they zap your energy from your kidneys and adrenals. They kept feeding off of you in a stress response. Of course. Your third Chakra is literally called your power Chakra. You need vibrant kidneys and adrenal to go the long haul on this place. They also become nervous or angry and take notice when you no longer respond to their various Pavlovian cues. They will watch you and wait to see if you respond. They may seem perplexed if you don’t. They will try it again. If you don’t respond this may elicit a further response from them or they may plot and prey. 

You are trained out of reality by your handlers through hypnotic suggestion and punishment. You feel the sting in your chakras every time you disobey. You learn to associate love with being zapped. And the zap of energy transfer is compounded by the fact that they choose the chakra(s) that they know irritate you the most from past lives. 

You have to pay extremely acute attention to the narcs cues. They are so unbelievably subtle most will miss them or believe any one who notices them to be delusional. Often it is a sniff of one nostril. Other times it is the wiggling of toes. Perhaps they huff and puff. Perhaps they stomp one foot or shuffle their feet. It is these cues that can only be registered by the subconscious mind while you are in states of cognitive dissonance. Once you integrate the conscious and subconscious minds, you spot it in real time.

The “best” victims learn these cues subconsciously and do their best to never ever step beyond the line their handler has set out. They are completely controlled by the Pavlovian responses. Because their drive to please and survive is so strong, they are the best energy givers and they supply their handler all day and night. They may not be the most bumped and bruised but they are often the most drained because they are eating themselves alive to not face punishment. Of course nothing a victim does can ever end abuse, except perhaps leaving (though even that’s not true most of the time). It’s just to say that the victim tries to be a perfect person to keep their handler happy.

And this is a form of abuse that has never even been acknowledged: energetic. Why else would you have to keep someone happy all day should you risk punishment expect for the fact that it’s an energetic prison?

The real message of Jesus Christ

Channeled messages for the 02/02/2020 rare palindrome

This week some rare events are lighting up the skies and the astrology is making big junctions that are pointing us in the direction of fate (as always). 2/2/2020 is a palindrome day, the only one of the year in fact, in which the number reads the same backwards and forwards and is considered a day of good luck and high intuition. It also happens to be my birthday and is also a great day to connect the words of the ascended masters about past lives and our incessant return to Earth in physical form.

Remember that movie Groundhog’s Day where Bill Murray keeps repeating the same day over and over again, much to his chagrin, and has to reverse engineer what he’s experiencing, and remember despite nightly amnesia. The Buddha and Jesus Christ also lived their own version of this, as do we all, but they recognized the system and therefore, shared similar messages: you have been here before, you do not die after you die, and you can stop coming back — there is a way to stop the pain.

In honor of this big astrological week, here are some channeled messages to help you, encourage you and inspire you on your ascension journey.

Channeled messages 1/28/2020:

The ego and self-esteem: On the other side the divine tell you good things about yourself. That’s why you only hear bad things about yourself here: to reprogram your brain to develop a wounded false persona. You forget who you are due to slander from the ego. This is exactly what narcissists are acting out on a world scale: spreading rumors and lies, defaming you, putting you down. That’s all they’re good at. We, however, tell each other the truth from the start and reinforce this idea so it becomes ingrained and you send energy to that belief system in order to make stronger the individual and the collective. It’s okay to think highly of yourself. That’s all we’ve ever told you. You have to believe that about yourself to succeed and to generate positive energy. Imagine how much energy goes back into reinforcing the belief that you’re the worst person in the world? It’s one reason people are obsessed with saying “God loves you, God cares so much for you,” and whatnot. They’re trying to convince themselves or remember, against the ego programming. It’s a way to say “I remember there is something different.”

The energy war: Negative energy is a type of fuel that can, for a short time, keep you going. But in the long run it causes damage and destruction because it is not self-regenerative. Nothing is ever repaired and it is never self-sustaining. It must be supported by an external source which contributes to entropy. So, positive energy is a much preferred. Think of life as an energy game between good and evil aka positive versus negative.

Karma: They use your karma against you. That’s how you are imprisoned and enslaved. Not only does it reinforce the idea that you’re worthless and deserve to die but they make you feel like you are dying by pushing that chakra trigger. So your energy centers shut down or start shutting down due to final bursts of unsustainable negative energy.

Why do only the good die young? The older your soul the quicker they kill you one way or another because you have the most knowledge, or remembrance, or way of finding remembrance. Additionally you will have the most karma. Which makes you a target or which causes the body to shut down much earlier. Or it causes you to develop vices, kill oneself and the like. That’s why you have to try to get through your karma without being killed which is a huge challenge. Chances are you’ve never done it before.

Of course they blamed you for the karmic problems. You brought them back up in order to solve them. They can’t understand that there is a solution. So they see the problem again, get triggered by it (the karma) and blame you. This is the empathic sacrificial lamb syndrome Christ came to prepare us for when we accept our dharma and stop choosing the karma.

On reverse engineering: That’s who becomes enlightened: you know how to reverse engineer. You have to reverse engineer in order to ever gain anything real. Reverse engineering is a special kind of intelligence. It is the correct forward way to think. Most spend their whole lives being indoctrinated and never realize they need to reverse engineer anything. Or they consider it backwards thinking because you have to go back into a problem in order so solve it. Think of it like traveling forward through a backwards facing and traveling universe.

Gravity itself is a negative force. Gravity pulls objects down, keeps them in place. Greater energetic density on an individual, caused by karma = greater gravitational pull = more “collisions.”

Entropy = negative, backwards, disordered movement

Negative entropy = forward energy via reverse engineering, problem solving, fixing

Negative entropy = positive energy

On teachers: earthly teachers simply reinforce the BEHAVIOR of obedience via memorization and Pavlovian-like training. They may try to trick their students to prove their superior intellect, or withhold information, or only teach in one way on purpose. They usually do not even consider how the child learns, and thus learning is standardized. They do not test the learning skills acquired but only the indoctrination. If you had been taught to learn, you would have no problem reverse engineering. But reverse engineering has to be re-taught because it is a skill required to generate positive energy. Those who can reverse engineer (aka heal themselves) are the ones who become enlightened.

You have to go through life ready and willing to reverse engineer everything in order to reach enlightenment. In order to do that you have to feel. How does something make you feel? That is the starting point. Then, what does it remind you of? How did it come to be the way that it is? Which negative energetic methods were used to keep it from functioning optimally? What is it missing in order to function optimally? What information was withheld from you in regards to this thing? How could it be changed to generate positive energy? Which problems do you predict will happen if you do not fix it? What are your solutions to those problems before they happen? The more you do this, the more it becomes second nature and therefore you are able to reverse engineer everything. When you reverse engineer everything, you can learn where it started, its origins, the intention it was created with, who it benefits, who it hurts, why it is in existence, and more. You have to reverse engineer the 3D karmic system as well as the ego to understand why humanity exists and why it is in pain as well as what this has to do with positive versus negative energetic forces.