The plight of the “high processors”

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The mind-body connection is not something I started out understanding. 11 years ago when I became fascinated with holistic nutrition, I didn’t quite get the depth of the way our mental and emotional state affects our physical body. Over the years, as I deconstructed my own health and that of my clients, I came to find that not only is the mind-body connection very real, that there is tons of science to support it, and that it is usually overlooked, but by excavating the subconscious mind and subconscious behaviors of a person (and where said trauma stems from), we can reverse or improve the health condition.

You see, all diseases begin as a result of imbalanced energy. (Please go back and read that sentence to let it sink in. I’m sharing the hidden collective unconscious information I have channeled over the years for your benefit, but it’s up to you to believe it). Eleven years ago I would not have believed this if I had read it. Only when I lived and observed it could I see that it is true and it is why human beings are so sick, on medication that only stabilizes but almost never cures, and why some sicknesses do not respond to traditional (or holistic) treatments at all. It is part of the reason there are no cures for diseases and why people who have had similar life traumas often have similar illnesses.

Empathic people are especially prone to energetic imbalances. In fact, I have never met an empathic person who was not energetically imbalanced. I have also never met a person whose chakras were balanced rather than being blocked or overactive. Here’s why:

Empathic people are born into families where abuse is present (even if there was no abuse in your childhood, you have been bullied, coerced, threatened, or shamed in some other area of your life). ——>

Empathic people have energy usurped from them by karmic partners/narcissists. ——>

Empathic people get punished for being who they really are. ——>

Empathic people learn to alter their energy to please the people around them or avoid the people around them. (This most often happens on a subconscious level). ——>

Over time, the inauthentic energy profile that the empath has adopted as an adaptation method becomes ingrained (aka ego forms and inherent chakra energy is altered). ——>

Because the energetic profile is unnatural, it becomes a stressor to the physical body. Over time, disease begins to develop as a response to the incessant energetic stressors. ——>

The empath becomes sick and possibly seeks diagnosis. While medication may provide some relief, they still do not feel well, are still triggered into the old familiar energy pattern when certain people/situations present themselves so they constantly cycle in and out of wellness.

Only by identifying the subconscious energetic trigger, behavioral (stress pattern with hormones, the nervous system, the brain, etc) can the disease be eradicated. (The body must also be supported with nutrition, sleep, relaxation, supplements, etc, of course).

Now, that said, there are certain kinds of empaths whom I consider “high processors“. This means they are constantly receiving boatloads of incoming extra-sensory information (intuitive insights and channeled messages) and energetic residues that they are not consciously aware of, yet is still stressing out their nervous system, hormones, blood pressure, blood sugar, kidneys, liver, thyroid, brain, etc. The average empath is receiving all kinds of data too, but the high processors just go at it non-fucking-stop. They are constantly stressed and do not know why, they are always on high alert, they may have trouble sleeping or enjoying life. They know everything about everyone and say nothing. They need ample time to veg-out at home doing nothing because everyday life is such a trigger. These people are also prone to anxiety, depression, panic attacks and PTSD.

Imagine if every day of your life (until you become aware of it, that is) feels like another battle to walk into, another day that could figuratively kill you, more people you have to encounter who either drain your energy or force theirs onto you. Imagine if your nervous system were operating in high-drive for 20, 30, 40, 50, 60 years at a time — all day, every day. What would be the health consequences as a result?

When your brain is operating at a higher level, your nervous system will be affected. This means your adrenal glands will be producing cortisol (the stress hormone) in over-drive. As time goes on, your body will not be able to keep up with the demand and cortisol production will slow, leaving you in a state of adrenal fatigue and completely wired but tired or lethargic. Your blood sugar and blood pressure may surge, then drop. As more time goes on, your thyroid hormone will be affected and you may become hypo- or hyper-thyroid. Due to all the cortisol that once hit your system, your immune system will not be able to fend off yeasts, bacteria, and viruses appropriately. You may get sick often. Your digestive tract will also become “leaky”, and the epithelial cells in the gut lining will become weakened, allowing food particles (proteins especially) to pass into circulation in the blood stream where they do not belong. This is where you become allergic to foods and the environment. Over time, your sex hormones may also be affected. “Bad” disease-promoting genes may also “switch on”, leaving you prone to the genetic issues that have plagued your family for generations.

At this point, daily life becomes a challenge because you simply feel unwell all of the time. You visit a doctor who either can’t diagnose you, or who puts you on a medication that only slightly helps but never gets to the root of the issues. You may also dabble in nutrition and supplements or other healing modalities, and while it helps, it never completely eradicates the problem so you give up. This is where energy work comes in.

Until you fix the energetic problem, you cannot fix your health. High processors, whom I work with most of the time, have to find a way back to themselves and their true nature. This involves identifying core wounds, learning/completing your life lessons, escaping karmic partners, resolving your karma, and acting out your own power unabashedly. Until you do so, you will live in a state of constant triggering and feel completely uneasy in the world. High processors are a special type of empath who are here to change the world with their inherent knowledge and information but “to whom much is given, much is expected.” Please do not sit on this gift and let it make you sick. Please learn how to uncover it and use it to your advantage rather than have it cause disease. There is hope for you.

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How to awaken your kundalini energy

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Kundalini is a Sanskrit word originating near ancient India that speaks of the arising energy and consciousness every single one of us are born with, which has been coiled at the base of the spine since birth. In theory, it is your true life force — that which drives and motivates, excites and awakens, and keeps you going forward in life. It is easy to spot people whose kundalini has been awakened from its sleep — they are present, attentive, able to enforce healthy boundaries, love themselves and others, have a zest for life, are positive and loving. Those whose kundalini is not awake will seem half-asleep or not present, negative, unmotivated, tired, or doubtful. In short, awakening your kundalini will lead to a happy, fulfilling life — something we all want for ourselves. But you have to work hard to do this.

Problems with energy flow through the body originate both from past and present lifetimes. As I have written about before, there are many ways your healthy, life-giving energy becomes inaccessible: unlearned lessons, fascial adhesions around the chakra centers, core wounds, energy vampires, and more. For all of us as energetic beings, a primary goal while alive (no matter your religious beliefs) should be to cultivate robust kundalini energy so you can go about life in a present, positive state; where life happens for you, not to you.

Think about a child. The typical child has so much excess energy they simply don’t know what to do with it. They run, chase, jump, play to their heart’s content when allowed and rarely get tired. When they do tire, they fall asleep easily and sleep soundly. When not allowed to express their energy, they become frustrated, irritable, and resentful; they act out and get in trouble with adults because they are unable to channel it appropriately. Adults generally do not posses the same energy levels as children (because of the aforementioned reasons that have blocked their own life force), so children become frustrated with adults and adults become frustrated with children as their energy levels diverge. Because of all sorts of enculturation and indoctrination, children gradually become less and less energetic — both physically and emotionally or spiritually. They learn to dim, shut off, shine less. They see how expressing their energy gets them in trouble. Over time as they age, people become as energetic as any other adult their age — not much, to say the least.

Many adults deal with extreme amounts of fatigue, nervousness, anxiety, excessive need for sleep, and other health complaints that they just can’t seem to get under control — no matter which diet they adopt, no matter which supplements or medication the take, no matter how much they relax, vacation, or sleep. What if I told you that your lack of energy is not an energy deficit but in fact a blockage or misdirection of energy? Would you believe it?

Visualize your kundalini energy as a long, thick cord starting at the first chakra (the base of your pelvis) and working it’s way up through the center of your body to the brain. Along the way, it will hit your sex organs, digestive tract, heart, thyroid and throat, and skull or brain. Think of it as a river channel. If there are “dams” within this straight channel, energy will not be able to flow to all remaining energy centers “downstream”. A blockage in your third chakra, for example, will mean energy cannot channel its way up to your heart, thyroid, and brain. Physically, you may experience heartburn, trouble breathing, congested lungs, trouble swallowing, headaches, brain fog, and more. Emotionally, you may not be open to love or unable to receive it, be wounded from broken hearts, have trouble expressing yourself, feel ashamed of your creativity, feel confused, and more.

We have been taught to view chakra imbalances as a case by case basis. In other words, your 1st, 4th, and 5th chakras may be blocked, so you may work to address those areas, but in reality they are but a symptom of a larger problem: your kundalini is being strangled. Take a look at the picture below to see what I mean.

Targeting specific chakras is helpful, yes, but you also must think about the way all of these areas connect. Fascia is one reason for multiple chakra blockages. Fascia is the connective tissue that sits under your skin and on top of your muscles. When healthy, it aides in structural support and transports essential nutrients and even hormone fluids. When dysfunctional, however, it becomes thick, rigid, and straight up blocks transport of said nutrients, blood flow and oxygen, blocks nerve function, and causes pain.

There are many reasons we develop tight, rigid, thick fascia but a primary cause that I do not see anyone speaking about is unlearned lessons and core wounds. Let me explain. Like many of my clients, those who come to me for help with thyroid diseases have had trouble speaking, expressing themselves, indulging their voice or creativity, or facing punishment if they do speak. They are such beautiful, intelligent, highly aware people but they see themselves as stupid, inadequate, broken, and unable to be trusted. They have worked hard to keep other people’s realities afloat and in doing so, suppressed theirs so it no longer exists. You would think this is all about emotional and spiritual well-being. In fact, though, your emotions and life experiences generate a physical stress response that develops bad fascia or fascial adhesions. How is this possible, you ask?

Imagine you are an empathic person in a family of non-empaths. Perhaps you were born highly sensitive and intuitive, though you do not know this about yourself (most of my clients fit this bill). You watch as your family shoots down ideas that do not align with their preexisting beliefs (be it religious, economic, political, etc). You watch as those who “play the 3D game” well get rewarded, liked, and adored. You see that those who do not get punished — shaming, spanking, neglect. You question your value and worth because who you are and what you desire out of life and are oppositional odds to everything in your environment. Unless you are a very strong personality, you will go within, get quiet, and choke back your voice — literally. You will tense your vocal chords, cry quietly (tensing the whole time), sneeze or cough quietly to avoid being noticed, never raise your hand or chime in because you don’t know if what you have to say will be accepted, and overall do not exercise your throat in normal ways, only tensing as, well, external tensions arise.

Or maybe you have been exposed to heinous secrets a family member is hiding. You know the truth, though they don’t know you do, and you feel conflicted about saying something to stop the immoral behavior versus not saying something because you don’t want to rock the boat. Each time the truth verges on coming out of you, or each time you are exposed to the lie, you tense up your throat and vocal chords further in anticipation of the punishment that will ensue. Over years and years, more and more bad fascia will develop over your throat. It becomes tighter and tighter, more and more restricted the less you use it. You will also become prone to throat infections or other E/N/T problems, trouble swallowing, choking on food, etc the less the area is used. It is about life lessons that keep getting put off (finally saying something, in this case), and the physical response that ensues. And to take it one step further, this is likely an age-old pattern that has presented itself in every lifetime but you never thought to resolve, and it has come back around for another look this lifetime. That is why it is such a trigger. Can you see the connection?

Now, what this has to do with kundalini is that you never had a problem with too little energy to begin with. You have always had enough energy because you were born with a full, complete, divine spark of energy. But the energy was being misdirected into tension patterns instead of healthy expressions because of the dysfunctional system you have had to play along in just to survive. All of your built up energy became tension that eventually caused physical dysfunction. The good news is that you can correct this and re-awaken your kundalini — not just individual chakra centers — for total healing and peace.

How to awaken your kundalini energy:

Let go of all societal expectations. Do not be or do what you have been told. Do what comes naturally from your soul and brings you joy.

Release all lower vibration emotions such as fear, shame, anxiety, resentment, anger, etc.

Live a big, bold life. Do not play small for anyone.

Do not hold back positive emotions such as joy, excitement, love, etc.

Get rid of energy vampires and toxic personalities who are draining your energy and causing tension.

Accept the bad things that have happened to you. Make peace.

Right the wrongs in your life. This allows you to learn the lessons.

Let go of attachments to your flaws.

Embrace your beauty and begin to only see yourself this way.

Rewrite every negative story you have ever been told about yourself.

Pursue your dreams head on. Live your life purpose.

Release past-life patterns that are playing out in the present. They are but a remnant of the distant past.

Do energy clearings, including sage, Reiki, mantras, positive alchemy, etc.

Improve your diet. Eat living foods which contain a life force all their own.

Drink alkaline water.

Eliminate parasites and other infections such as SIBO and candida.

Cook for yourself at home. Infuse your food with love.

Eat less fried and processed food.

Eat slowly and take time to enjoy and digest properly.

Do self-care rituals such as massage, exercise, sex, baths, naps, etc.

Cleanse your space (deep clean, de-clutter, organize, rearrange, sage, light candles, etc).

Do myofascial release, especially around the chakra centers, but on your body as a whole.

How the feminine’s intuition is suppressed and how to reclaim it

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Your intuition is your power. It is knowing without knowing why (though later on, with careful observation, you do learn why). It is trusting your gut, your first instinct, despite the many ways you are talked out of it. When honored and honed, it is also speaking off the cuff, acting from the hip, and not giving a damn about what anyone else demands. It is following your natural internal cycles and rhythms and indulging them rather than being overtaken with shame, guilt, or fear. It is recognizing the cognitive dissonance around you and accepting it for what it is: a lie.

Perhaps you are at a point in your life where you have seen how suppressing this truth has made you sick time and time again. Perhaps you are at a place where you want to regain the power that was taken from you. As you work to regain your intuitive abilities, your health will improve, plain and simple. Suppressing it for years and years has landed you in a bad place. It steals your joy, zaps your energy, blocks chakra activation, and creates physical and emotional blockages. It makes you a robot, or zombie, living a life you never chose (one that others chose for you), unable to self-actualize to your greatest good and purpose here. It keeps you stressed and down, drifting through life rather than facing it head on.

Without a robust intuition, you are at the mercy of others. You are a pawn in their game because they know they can get you to do whatever it is they please with a simple shame game, nasty look, and word of discord. They know your wounds and the wound of blocked intuition tells a woman she is powerless, cannot make her own decisions, cannot trust herself, and can only ever receive external validation based on the expectations of those around her. “Look this way” it tells you. “Act this way” it demands. “Do this for me” it says. How wrong they all are.

If you want to tap into your intuition to begin living an authentic life you must overcome great — huge — societal hurdles. The kind of hurdles that are the scariest things for you. The things that will take you to your lowest places. The kind of challenges that require you stop accepting any form of external validation and finally go it alone, with only yourself as your compass: “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”

Here’s the thing: we have all been born into a masculine system. It assigns men or more masculine personalities certain inherent rights at birth. Rights that give them permission while the feminine’s are taken or hidden. Rights that make a man feel worthy, because he has someone to always subjugate. It is the man who forces his way past you and expects you to move out of his way. The man who calls you a child (or treats you like one) despite the many strong things you have done in your time on earth. The man who expects of you without giving in return. The thing is, this system is but a facade on stilts. And the only things keeping it upright are secrets and power plays.

For a feminine to access her intuition, she has to uproot the system. It is not enough to trust herself, she must also act on it. She has to tell the truth (aka: spill the secrets she has buried in her blood and bones and pretended not to know) and she has to own her birthright power. In doing so, she will make enemies. You cannot be afraid of making enemies. It is better to make enemies for righteous causes than have friends for sake of falsehoods. Your true intuitive nature was suppressed to make it easier for others. Stop making it easy for them. After all, all they have are secrets and ambition keeping them in power. You were born to uproot this fake system with the truth.

Here’s what keeps the feminine’s intuition suppressed:

“Be a good girl” mentality. Being a good girl is imposed on women from the earliest age. Societal expectations have told you who you are to be, not the other way around. Chances are, no one has ever asked you who you are and sought to understand you. It has always been you working hard to meet someone else’s expectations of who you should be. Many women are told to “keep sweet”, aren’t allowed to indulge their sexuality without public humiliation and punishment, run on a never-ending hamster wheel of self-deprecation and self-woe over their physical appearance, and are kept distracted by the demands of judgment from others for decades at a time.

Maybe you haven’t had experiences so dramatic, or maybe you have despite thinking you lead a “normal” or “progressive” life. When a woman is told to “keep sweet”, “be a good girl”, whether verbally or through implication, she cannot tap into her intuitive abilities because the yearnings of the soul will never be in complete alignment with a religious text or societal expectation. It is a box that keeps her trapped because to break free would require not caring about who she has been told to be — the scariest thing ever. She’s never seen anyone else escape so she thinks, “I must be the only one” — every other woman is so good at being good.

Fear over making toxic masculines grow. Many intuitive women have been raised in homes and families in which there was very strong, heavy, and toxic masculine energy. The father was the head of the family, he controlled you and others with anger, resentment, punishment, fear, and threats. Maybe you were spanked. Maybe everyone was so emotionally unavailable that you were never able to share your feelings without fear of punishment. Nothing feminine was ever honored and in fact, it was shamed when exposed. If this is the case, chances are you have quietly accepted this behavior from others your entire life without realizing it. It has likely driven you deeper and deeper into pain because you do not believe you can trust yourself without someone becoming angry or without becoming ashamed for your true nature. In reality, this is more about a fear of forcing them to grow and change. Growth and change happen as a result of duality or polarity. If you were only ever exposed to masculine energy, while the feminine remained hidden, you couldn’t develop your intuitive abilities because you’ve only ever been indoctrinated rather than allowed to explore.

The problem is, toxic masculines do not want to grow and change because that would allow the balance of power to be equal. They would have to rescind their role as dictator and allow others to have power in the relationship. They would have to be exposed to new information, to see things differently, to hear another side to the story. The feminine has been so fearful of the retaliation that could occur if she did speak her truth and therefore, force someone else to see things from her perspective. Please note that women can exhibit these behaviors as much as men, it is only the system I am referring to here.

You make people question their preconceived notions of what life should be. Go to school, get a job, get married, have kids, live happily ever after is what we have been taught will make you successful, respected, and happy. Up, up, and up like a data chart with an ascending arrow. “Buy low, sell high!” and the whole bit. The truth is that life is a series of ups and downs, zigs and zags, stops and starts, then stops again, messes and spills, blood, sweat and tears, broken glass, and full glasses. Following your intuition will result in a messy but fulfilling life. You get to choose which you prefer: neat and tidy but boring and unfulfilling and disconnected, or messy as fuck and the greatest adventure you could have ever imagined. The experiences allow you to develop your intuition, plain and simple. Without raw, life-shattering experiences you learn little to nothing. When others see you having said raw experiences, they get uncomfortable because they’re too messy. They can’t understand you and they don’t want to “catch” whatever it is you have. You can forgo their judgments and perceptions and chase that adventure down, live the journey, accept the ups and downs, and become intuitive. The choice is yours.

Dumbing yourself down. I think this is pretty self-explanatory but there is a long list of reasons feminines dumb themselves down. When they do, they believe others to be superior, know more, be more trustworthy or intelligent than themselves. This leads to more silence and self-doubt.

“My ideas are stupid”

“Everyone else knows more than me”

“I’m not skilled enough to contribute”

“Other people get rewarded and I never do; I must be wrong”

“They have more training than me”

“I don’t have book knowledge”

“I’ve always been told I was wrong”

“I’m just supposed to be a pretty face”

“My intelligence will intimidate them”

“My intelligence will threaten their egos”

“My intelligence makes me less attractive”

“I will face consequences if I speak up”

“I can be pretty or smart, but not both”

Keep in mind your intuitive inkling may be different than others’ ideas and opinions, but that doesn’t make it wrong. It only means you are escaping from the box while they aren’t aware they are in it.

The “you fought back” abuse fallacy. Like I said, it is not enough to trust your intuition, you also must put it into action. When you do, the messages you receive will be so contradictory to everything around you, it will launch you into action. You will begin to see the injustices, the unfairness, the abuse. You will want to do something about it. When you do, you will be called a problem for acknowledging the problems in the first place. You will be blamed. You will be put on trial. Your every mannerism, smile, word, will be cross examined and dissected. They will find reasons not to like you. They will find reasons why the joy in your soul is dark rather than light. They will take a flashlight to your skin to find the “moles”. “It was her intuition’s fault” they will say. Don’t let this blameshifting stop you — trust yourself and do the things anyway. It is a sign you are on the right track.


And finally — when I think of intuition and the feminine experience, I think of this quote from one of my favorite books. Keep it in your heart. Refer to it often. The feminine intuition is that mythical creature. You only know it when you feel it — somewhere in the wild, unexpectedly and for better or worse, it changes you forever. Most people have forgotten it exists. But if you’ve caught a glimpse, you know it is real. “I am the only Unicorn there is? The last? That cannot be. Why would I be the last? What do men know? Because they have seen no unicorns for a while does not mean we have all vanished. We do not vanish. There has never been a time without unicorns. We live forever! We are as old as the sky, old as the moon! We can be hunted, trapped; we can even be killed if we leave our forests, but we do not vanish.”