When narcissists write history, we must accept nothing as truth

3D, 5D, abuse, ascension, brain, ego, empath, energy, intuition, karma, narcissism, relationships, stress

We’ve all heard it: “History is written by the victors”. In other words, when recording events between peoples, nations, and species, objectivity is rarely encouraged. There aren’t two, three, four, five hundred sides to the story — there is one: who won? Who overpowered? Who outwitted? Who controlled? Who convinced a majority of the veracity of their actions or cause? Not only are we indoctrinated into the white man’s version of history in nearly every educational discipline, we are taught to learn how the archetypal white man learns, and we are taught to think like the patriarchal system tells us to think. “Be the biggest, the best, the baddest, project innocence or a make it seem like we absolutely had to kill those people. We had to. We did it for our country. We secured our spot as top dog” and, “Be like the majority — or those who think they’re the majority. They project the energy of superiority and you want to be at the top like them.”

Projecting an heir of superiority because one group has overpowered another group, or because said group has strength in numbers is not the truth. I have said it before and I’ll say it again: groupthink is not the truth just because a majority of people believe it or enforce it. Groupthink is a tactic against the truth. Groupthink upholds the 3D karmic system so that the truth cannot be perceived or believed. Let me put it to you this way because it is seared into my psyche: I grew up in the Southern Baptist church whose leaders drilled stories about the Pharisees and Sadducees, two religious sects of Judaism common in the times of the recorded New Testament, into our worldview. These “fundamentalist” sects (as they were referred to) were in direct opposition to the truth of the gospel, we were told. The fundamentalists enforced rules and laws with no care for the truth of the human experience. Christ, on the other hand, claimed he came to overturn the laws in favor of, well, empathy and people-first principles which was immensely healing for his followers. We all know the Pharisees went on to test Christ through use of the law and encourage his crucifixion because of Christ’s radical information and otherworldly authority. He confronted death as a perceived thief, anarchist, and kook.

This meant very little to me until recently — until I saw beyond the guise of biblical teaching and saw into the cyclical patterns humans have always been engaged in. An abuse victim brings forward new information for the group to consider (“I have been abused. The person you think you know and love abused me and broke my mind, body and soul. Please help me and please rectify this situation”) only to be met with flying monkey abuse by proxy, brainwashing, and threats. “Liar, exaggerator, attention-seeking crazy person” they tell the victim. “What you think you saw, you didn’t. What you think you experienced, you didn’t. We’ll take everything away from you” they say (and they usually do). When enough people are convinced the victim cannot possibly know the truth, the truth is believed to be whatever the majority has enforced (aka: “you were not abused, and in fact, the group has been abused by your abuse claims. Instead of admitting to the abuse, we will abuse you further to prevent the truth from coming out”).

The overarching problem here is that humanity has been talked into the notion that there is no universal truth; that there cannot be one clear, distinct right and wrong separate from shifting tactics; that the truth lies in how many people believe a thing. That the truth is what the victor believes to be true because, certainly, the minority cannot know the truth — they are too “small” in comparison to the mob. If we take a step back and look at archetypal problems with recorded history, we see that only generations later do we learn that there is another story behind the official story line. That there are people oppressed, killed, and left destitute because of what the group has done to them. And that is if we are lucky. The minority by and large still has not had a chance, or a listening ear, to tell their real histories — and if they did, does anyone care to listen?

History as a noun is inherently narcissistic. As such, we cannot believe anything we have been taught at face value. We must dig deeper to uncover the other sides to the story. Because of our own indoctrination, we are lucky if we can perceive there to be at least one other side to the story, let alone hundreds. Too much information always causes a shut down of the ego. Too much data makes an egoic mind go haywire. To an ego, information must always be black and white, right and wrong in favor of the majority, no room for grey area or, ahem, empathy. Think about these things as you continue to ascend and deconstruct the recorded history of our planet. If narcissistic personalities have always recorded world event, is there anything we can trust as true? Or will it all be distortions of the truth? As such, do we really know anything about why we are here and what has transpired on Earth?


The 3 archetypal wounds all empaths share

3D, 5D, abuse, ascension, chakras, core wounds, ego, empath, energy, holistic, intuition, karma, life lessons, mind-body, narcissism, past lives, relationships, stress

In my work doing Energy Readings, I illuminate for clients what their core wounds and life lessons are (among other fascinating things). These are evident based on your energy, the energy of those around you, your fears and phobias, your talents, your beliefs about yourself and the world, your history and experiences, the roles you seem to fall into, the things you dream about pursuing, and more. In other words, we all have our own unique wounds that are holding us back and keeping us sick. Once recognized and acknowledged, we can become fully self-actualized people, able to be and do whatever we like in order to fulfill our souls need for peace and longevity.

But there are also collective, long-standing archetypal wounds that all empaths share. These are the things you keep subconsciously avoiding by living smaller than you really are, adopting a false persona of sorts to keep others happy, which means you’ll never be able to live out your true wonderful purpose here. These three wounds are so deeply embedded into the empathic psyche that, until you have someone elucidate these subconscious belief systems and fears, you will truly go your entire life running from them. And they are “collective” because we all have them.

These fears stem from past life trauma, plain and simple. As I have said before, I would not have ever believed in the concept of past lives had I not had dramatic supernatural “remembrance” experiences in which I recognized strangers — and them, me. This is not something I can quantify to convince anyone. Once it happens to you, your whole world changes and everything you think you once believed about the nature of reality is stripped away, leaving you with a whole new perspective on the world.

Once I understood we have all been here many times before, the wounds I saw my clients carrying suddenly made so much more sense. They weren’t just running from unhealthy relationships in this lifetime. They weren’t just choosing dysfunction over order and direction. They were trying to avoid that which had happened in previous incarnations — because what had happened before left them dead, destitute, sickened, and alone. But as with everything in life, until you understand the system, you cannot understand the experiences. Until you see there is a greater rhyme and reason, you cannot make sense of the nonsense and bullshit you have lived — or why you are so fearful of things that have not yet happened in this incarnation.

As I’ve tried to convey again and again, the world and its people can be split into one of three categories: empaths, narcissists, and those who fall somewhere in the middle. Empaths and narcissists will always be at odds because empaths are here to preserve the planet and narcissists wish to destroy the biological technology and resources which would help future generations. Of course, few people know they’re acting this out because these desires reside deep within the subconscious mind. But a person’s actions and intentions (energy) will always show you which side they are on: do they make paths straight or do they inflict pain and chaos whenever possible? Up until this point, narcissists have relegated empaths to a status of subservience, and narcissistic personalities have taken positions of leadership all over the globe.

As such, empaths have had to play the offense and defense against narcs lifetime after lifetime. There are three subconscious, archetypal wounds all empathic people have learned to “avoid” by catering to narcissists. They include:

  1. The wound of seeing the veil. This means you feel guilty, weird, wrong, and ashamed that you are naturally able to differentiate between the 3-dimensional world and the world of spirit (the 5D). Even if you do not call it this, you know in your soul that there is the world we use to “get by”, pay bills, engage in entertainment, and work a job. Then there is also a world that resides in how you and others feel, how you know there is more to life than money, and how you want to help cultivate change for the better. You know there is more. This is an ability you have come to hide because you have seen in present and past lifetimes that the “seers” are mocked, shamed, and shunned — and sometimes put to death.
  2. The wound of the “mob”. This is the subconscious fear that if you expose or forgo groupthink, you will be at the mercy of punishment from the cognitive dissonance you have instilled in others. In other words, if you do not go along with the directives of “normalcy” that your group/community/family operates under, you will become the black sheep. And the black sheep always faces some sort of punishment for being different or exposing the unethical nature of the group.
  3. The wound of the gift. Empaths aren’t just highly sensitive people, able to feel and read the energy/intentions of those around them. They are also seekers, lightworkers, healers, and helpers. They are here to change the world. But because of the previous two wounds, we suppress our true intuitive nature in order to please others. What should be a natural ability becomes a dangerous secret we protect at all costs. Then, each time we face a situation that requires us to use our intuitive, healing nature, we go into hiding instead of activating it. Each time this happens, we become more stressed, sick, and ashamed of ourselves that we have this gift in the first place. Over time, our physical and emotional health suffers greatly — all because we have a gift that we feel we cannot use.

You see, these fears are your karma. When we think of karma, we think of punishment. But actually karma is all of the unresolved problems you have never dealt with so you are no longer tied to the past. In my experience, the only ways to overcome these subconscious collective fears is to confront them head on. This requires not only recognizing they are present to begin with, but also doing the opposite of them — acting on our gifts, allowing the mob to do what it wants, then rising above it all in the end. Yes, they will hate you — and get others to hate you. Yes they will take your money, your good name, your clout, your definition of self. But after you do so, you will come to find that no matter which fear tactic is thrown your way, you can indeed overcome them all. And you will no longer be scared or subconsciously hold yourself back from your true life’s path. You will step into your “I Am” presence, unaffected by the sabotage or judgment of others. You become free of karma. Only you get to define who you are.

Watch my Instagram video for more information on these three wounds and what you can do to overcome them.

The disobedient victims are bringing about the new world

3D, 5D, abuse, ascension, ego, empath, karma, narcissism, relationships, stress

I’ve had a blog post in my draft queue for nearly two years. It’s called “The shame of being female and unvouched for”. It’s a amalgamation of the realizations I had after leaving several abusive situations, and how by and large victims lose all personal and professional credibility in becoming an “untouchable” “abused woman”; in becoming a truth teller. Whistle-blowing isn’t like what you think. No whistle-blower is ever praised until well after the fact. But first, they’re targeted. If we’ve learned anything since October 2017 when the shit hit the fan globally for celebrities and public figures, it’s this: karma always exposes itself and people always find ways to cover it up so that no one has to confront it or be seen for who and what they really are (abusers).  

In my own examinations, I’ve come to find that society only allows one to be a victim in a very strict set of predetermined expectations. 1). Be utterly sad. 2). Be utterly powerless. 3). Have marks and bruises all over your body (and you better have video footage). 4). Never fight back. 5). Don’t tell anyone except professionals that you’ve been abused. If you don’t fall into each and every one of those categories, and if those around you have sometimes seen you deviate from these predetermined behaviors by exhibiting some sort of authentic personality, you’re “not” a victim. You’re a deranged exaggerator who lives for attention; you’re negative; you’re trying to bring people down; you’re mistaken. Over and over again, in conversations with my empathic clients, this has always been a common denominator: any time they have told the truth about the abuses they’ve experienced, they were told they were wrong in their assessment. The pain of the abuse isn’t all these people have to endure — they also have to live with the pain of the cognitive dissonance about what they have been through. 

See, no one can vouch for a victim after she’s told the truth because she’s committed the most unforgivable sin: shaking up egos. So victims go out into the world alone with no clout or benefits and no one to say, “yeah I know her. You can trust her. She’s great. Yes, she sees the world correctly.” The cognitive dissonance she’s instilled in others makes her a bad girl. The groupthink she’s shat on makes her unstable. If she doesn’t agree with the crowd, there must be something wrong with her since everyone else has come to the same conclusion. Victims have to rebuild their perceived trustworthiness themselves and there is great shame involved in being a truly free woman. Free women are too witchy. A free woman doesn’t care whose feelings are hurt when she tells the truth because the truth stands on its own. A free woman doesn’t need the “mob“. 

Of course there are many fallacies at play here. See, the ego only understands point A to point B logic. It allows for no unique situations, empathy, or discernment. “If you were abused, then you would act like this”, “if you are a victim, you should be lifeless and in the hospital”, “if you were targeted, you should do nothing in response or you’re no better than your perpetrators”, “If you were abused then why are you trying to get help from your friends? You need to call the police and see a counselor. Don’t have police reports? Then it didn’t happen”. When too many unique scenarios and details are involved in the mix, people’s brains start shutting down. They can’t handle too many variables at once. They can’t put themselves in someone else’s shoes. Even if a victim tries to connect the dots for others, how their life has been affected as a result, how they are in a worse position than before the abuse, the egos around them will not allow for new input. They will not allow themselves to connect the dots in order to learn empathy. System overload, back to ego mode. Victims who do not play along with these unrealistic, apathetic societal expectations become the problem themselves. They become disobedient. 

We must ask ourselves why someone who has been victimized would not receive immediate care, support, trust, resources, and understanding. Why the systems or people who abused in the first place are not immediately corrected. The answer is simple and sad: society operates on the underlying assumption that you can not be authentic in this world and once you are, you open yourself up to loss of credibility. In other words, you must live and project the 3D paradigm and once you stop doing that, you become disobedient and deserving of punishment. 

From there, we must further ask ourselves: why does the 3D system need to be upheld and what would happen if we stopped playing along? If it needs to be upheld, does that mean it is not real to begin with? Which system would we naturally fall into (aka: the truth) once the 3D collapses? What would happen if we all became disobedient? And this is where it gets juicy. 

The 3 dimensional world is real, yes, but it is also little more than one big projection. It is a projection of hopes, and dreams, and wishes. But it is also a projection of an idealized world that does not actually exist. It is the 1950s cocktail party version of life where we dress in our very best, adopt a personality to entertain, lift martinis and clink glasses like there’s no tomorrow, and never ever speak about problems because what will the neighbors think?

By hiding the problems, sweeping them under the rug, and punishing the truth tellers, the 3D system is upheld. By acknowledging the problems, karma, and abuses, the 3D system collapses. And that is the war between good and evil that has been in the works for so long. Some people (narcissists) are on the side of lies and falsehoods to maintain control. Some people (empaths) are on the side of truth in order to bring about a new world paradigm. Only when we admit to the problems and fix them do we indulge truth, peace, love, acceptance, justice, equality and understanding. You will know who you are by which side you choose. You will know who others are by which side they choose. 

The world is changing. If you have been treated like a disobedient victim and could never wrap your head around why no one cared or believed you, this is your answer. The subconscious belief systems at play are why. The people who implied you were disobedient are working to prevent the new world from coming about. The people who are working to support victims and change the system are bringing about a new way of living. When your karma confronts you by way of an abuse victim needing your help and support, you have the choice to dig your heels in the ground and stop progress, or you have the ability to help burgeon a new planetary system. The people who never shed their egos will not have a place in the new higher vibrational world. The choice is yours. Of course, I would encourage you to continue to be a disobedient victim.