Reclaiming your true identity

As the reality around us continues to implode, as the truth is exposed in record time, those on the ascension journey find more and more falsehoods to shed: the lies you have been told about yourself, the abuse you endured, the many times you questioned but were told to stop asking (or speaking). If little here has every made sense to you, that’s a good sign.

You have been born into a constructed reality. At birth, you were assigned a role to play, according to your parents’ or caregivers’ desires. Yes, you were given a name and gender, a weight and length, but also, as you grew, you were taught who you are and who you can become. You were told what you like, what to eat, how assertively or softly to speak, what to wear, how smart you are as well as your perceived aptitude or talents, whom to love or marry, which religion to choose, where to live, and on and on.

Nearly everyone else in your family, group, tribe, or community fit into these expectations so seamlessly you wondered why you’ve had trouble doing the same. There has always existed a void between these expectations and who you really are. Your true self became a dirty little secret, hidden deep within the recesses of your subconscious mind.

When you did not obey the orders you were assigned at birth, you were spanked, shamed, chastised, neglected, or isolated. You were told how wrong or terrible you are. You were reminded how unlike everyone else you are, and if you wanted love or success, you must obey the orders. For some, far worse punishment ensued as soon as they made a decision for themselves, including physical beatings, rape, extreme mental duress, and for some, even death.

You became more and more frustrated or dejected at the person you have been forced to become versus the person you feel you inherently are. Few have ever asked who you actually are deep inside of your soul, and indeed, if they knew the truth of who you secretly are, you feel they would reject or bully you altogether. It is as if there is some secret inside of your soul that makes you set apart from the rest, as if you are a stranger in a strange land. The physical body may be acclimated to this place but your soul never has.

The next big step is releasing the identities you were assigned, in both this lifetime and others. As I write about in my book, How to Become Intuitive, the soul cannot be chained by human labels. Your soul always was and your soul always will be. The ascended masters came to teach us this lesson, namely, you are not your body and you don’t die after you die; you go on. To where you go on is up to you.

Imagine being reincarnated lifetime after lifetime and bring forced to become who society, the state, and your caregivers, friends or family wanted you to be. Imagine what you were forced to do just to survive. Imagine ignoring your own soul each time in order to fly under the radar and not be punished, or to live and eat and have shelter. To fit in. Imagine how much subconscious programming you would accumulate that must be cleared. This is the job of those ascending. This is the soul roll call you received some time ago: to finally figure out who you actually are.

Think of it like an inverse reaction: as more cover ups and lies are exposed to the public, the greater insight you have about the truth. The truth of yourself, of others, and of why you are here. As one gets worse, the other gets better. As one become more chaotic, the other becomes more clear. You can utilize the principle of the opposite to finally perceive the truth.

It is safe to completely give up your false identity. The one others assigned you that has nothing to do with who you actually are; your human persona that appeased but did not fulfill you. Once you shed this, few will see your real self. They won’t be able to recognize it because they don’t even recognize it for themselves. But some will. And you will. It’s okay to become the higher self and identify as such. The you that is separate from all wounding, physical limitations, judgments from others, and instruction is who you really are. What if you stopped caring what others want you to be and started living as an infinite being within the system? You would be free of your karma and your soul will be able to go on after this constructed reality collapses.

How to translate and understand narcopath-ese

Narcissists speak a language unto themselves. An empathic person born into this world will not innately understand it and therefore feel confused, left out, and weird for not speaking the language of the general population. You may always be worried who will try to play “gotcha” next and how you will respond, interpret their meaning, or defend yourself.

Once you understand the basics of how these people operate you can easily translate their meanings in order to not only understand their real intention and find clarity for yourself, but also be able to predict what they will do next based on their true meanings and intentions.

You have to keep in mind that language is not only acquired through memorization, observation and immersion, or acquiring it as a native speaker. Language is also an energy that can be felt. The words that come out of one’s mouth do not necessarily reflect the language they are speaking. You must feel for what they are actually saying, based on the energy of intention they are putting off. You can feel in order to translate.

Here’s what you want to keep in mind:

  1. Narcissists and sociopaths speak in reverse. A healthy person starts with telling the truth and then observes any lies as a result of the truth. A “narcopath” will tell the lies first and wait to see the reaction of those listening.
  2. They obfuscate their lies by making them appear to be truths. While telling the lie, they rely on appeals to truth, peace, equality, justice, and harmony. Think of it as two opposing currents. One, on top, is what they think everyone wants to hear in order to prevent exposing themselves. The other current, beneath that, is the truth they tell in a backwards way so that it becomes a riddle one has to figure out.
  3. They also obfuscate their meaning via nostalgia or other appeals to emotions. They make you sentimental for the past, despite the past being hellish. They make you fearful for the future without them. So people keep repeating the past, seeking the feeling of love or connectedness that has been promised to them by the narc.
  4. Their words and actions always betray each other.
  5. They create incentives or reward people for supporting and upholding the narc’s statements. They place supporters on a pedestal so the rest of society yearns to be recognized and idolized as they are. The elites of the world are some of the most insecure human beings. They project elitism but they worship the head narc in order to feel worthy themselves because it is not generated from within.

Here’s a little translation from last night’s 2020 State of the Union address:

Freedom unifies the soul” = We pretend you are free but take your rights or make you pay for or earn basic rights so that your souls are always at odds with each other in class warfare. You are not free or unified. Freedom unifies the soul, which is why we will never give it to you.

We will always protect patients with preexisting conditions” = if being an energetic slave made you sick, its okay, we’ll still let you pay for health care. We won’t cut off your rights because you were a bad example to others by showing them what the system does to a person’s body and soul. You are still allowed to pay for over-priced help. We will continue to make money off of you, don’t worry.

Stanctuary” = greatest Freudian slip of the night. Immigrants are beneath me.

Simply put, backwards language does not make sense. It requires you decode it in order to understand and have the upper hand. And this is why empathic people have never felt at home here or understood this place. Everything is backwards, including how narcs communicate.

Channeled messages 02/03/2020

On your original present-lifetime wound and your narcissistic parent(s)’ role in it: You have to go back to your original wound in this present lifetimes. It either early trauma (what a baby or young child would consider traumatic, not what an adult would), or attachment problems, or a mixture of the two. You have to discover what your original belief about yourself was, based on what your parents or caregivers reinforced. What is the statement? If you cannot figure it out, test your subconscious mind by reciting various possible statements. When you come to the correct answer, it will feel like an aha! moment and you may feel physically and energetically lighter.

As a child, you would do anything to survive. Narcs are incapable of helping anything to grow or expand, so if your caregivers were narcissistic, you were in constant states of biological stress because you worried you would die. So you learned to do whatever the parent wanted in order to ensure your survival. Imagine what would happen if you went against your parent, the person who kept you alive as an infant and child. Imagine you trying to fend for your survival by always keeping them happy. You came to believe you are bad and they must be kept happy at all times or you will die. This is how the ego programming begins each lifetime. You must overcome the original parental belief wound in this lifetime. Go back to the source: Handlers.

Narcs talk over and guide their children in conversation to make themselves look like fit parents. They smile and act loving or jovial but it’s just to control the child in order to control the other adults perception. So the child learns to vouch for the handler. Then they find a spouse who requires the same because this is what they were taught love was. It feels familiar. So the empaths are kept in a hypnotic painful response as a result and this creates cognitive dissonance between their conscious and subconscious minds. This is what differentiates and creates the duality of the mind: conscious and subconscious. This is why you feel you are two people: one deep inside who you really are and one every one has told you to be (or you face punishment). 

Digging into the subconscious mind means liberating the trauma so that it is no longer a junk storage facility. So that everything, conscious and subconscious, aka your perception and theirs, is no longer separate, only one being believed and one being a dirty little secret.

On subconscious cues from narcs: Narcs and the double blink: when making eye contact with narcs they will do a double blink or blink then look to their right and down (indicative of accessing the part of the brain that makes things up and improvises or plots) when your soul comes shining through your eyes. It’s like they talk themselves out of seeing it. It’s like they don’t want you to see that they can see who you really are. Or, you said something that upset their ego so they took it as a slight. That means you’re in for it. You usurped their power or reminded them you see through them.

Their punishment for this is in your third Chakra. Fear and anxiety and pain burning pain. It’s how they zap your energy from your kidneys and adrenals. They kept feeding off of you in a stress response. Of course. Your third Chakra is literally called your power Chakra. You need vibrant kidneys and adrenal to go the long haul on this place. They also become nervous or angry and take notice when you no longer respond to their various Pavlovian cues. They will watch you and wait to see if you respond. They may seem perplexed if you don’t. They will try it again. If you don’t respond this may elicit a further response from them or they may plot and prey. 

You are trained out of reality by your handlers through hypnotic suggestion and punishment. You feel the sting in your chakras every time you disobey. You learn to associate love with being zapped. And the zap of energy transfer is compounded by the fact that they choose the chakra(s) that they know irritate you the most from past lives. 

You have to pay extremely acute attention to the narcs cues. They are so unbelievably subtle most will miss them or believe any one who notices them to be delusional. Often it is a sniff of one nostril. Other times it is the wiggling of toes. Perhaps they huff and puff. Perhaps they stomp one foot or shuffle their feet. It is these cues that can only be registered by the subconscious mind while you are in states of cognitive dissonance. Once you integrate the conscious and subconscious minds, you spot it in real time.

The “best” victims learn these cues subconsciously and do their best to never ever step beyond the line their handler has set out. They are completely controlled by the Pavlovian responses. Because their drive to please and survive is so strong, they are the best energy givers and they supply their handler all day and night. They may not be the most bumped and bruised but they are often the most drained because they are eating themselves alive to not face punishment. Of course nothing a victim does can ever end abuse, except perhaps leaving (though even that’s not true most of the time). It’s just to say that the victim tries to be a perfect person to keep their handler happy.

And this is a form of abuse that has never even been acknowledged: energetic. Why else would you have to keep someone happy all day should you risk punishment expect for the fact that it’s an energetic prison?

The real message of Jesus Christ

Why “vibing high” is another form of denial

If you’ve even remotely engaged in the metaphysical or spiritual communities of the world by way of bookstores, podcasts, YouTube, retreats, classes, meditations, workshops and the like, you have observed those leaders and followers who like to “vibe high.” In other words, they adopt a higher vibration that seems to project love, kindness, unity, and harmony above any lower vibrations of evil, greed, hatred, injustice, and more. You may look up to these people and think you’d like to become like them, forgoing those low vibes in favor of something higher. It makes them appear to be a better person, a more stable person, a healthier person, certainly a more spiritual person — and chances are, you’d like that too.

As I have said in previous posts, the problem is that many times, these people have gray or blank auras that seem static-y, not grounded, and false. Their message makes sense but their energy is not differentiated or individuated. It is not unique to them. It is an energy of what they think they should be, rather than who they actually are. And thus, it does not project the frequency of truth.

This is because it is impossible to vibe high unless you have solved problems. Unless you acknowledge problems, stare them dead in the eye, find solutions for them, and reverse them, you are not vibrating at the frequency of truth. You are only appearing to.

We know that narcissists are also masters of denial and deflection. They overlook abuse on purpose. They pretend they didn’t do what they just did. They get others to stay in denial as well so that nothing is ever addressed and resolved, so that they are never held accountable, or so that they can continue stealing energy from the victim by way of cognitive dissonance and pain. They pretend they are high vibe because they deny what has actually happened.

That’s not to say that those high vibers are all narcissists. It’s to say, this method is employed by many. It’s to say that ignoring problems, abuse, injustices, and hatred do not make one a better person. Becoming a better person requires one going directly to the source of the pain and often, becoming that vibration in order to absolve it. You cannot fix a problem until you immerse yourself in it and get to know it intimately. Avoiding the vibration of the problem means you are denying it exists or that there is a solution for it. It is trying to erase the past by overwriting it, which doesn’t work when it comes to human pain. It must first be recognized and fixed.

Going into the problem, however, by remembering it and becoming it, is what truly solves the problem and therefore transmutes the energy. In the process, the low vibe may get blamed on you — especially if you are the only one who admits to feeling it. If others want to overwrite this pain by denying it, it will be up to you to adopt, learn from, and resolve.

Think of narcissistic parents. Many empaths have at least one. When their child cries or needs help, they believe the child should be ignored so that the child learns to stop crying or being needy. They believe this solves the problem because yes, over time, the child will expect less and less from the narc parent since they have seen they never get their needs met by this person. The empathic parent, however, runs to the child, assess what is needed to stop the pain, and offers a solution. Perhaps it is a hug. Perhaps it is bouncing or rocking the child until their nervous system is soothed. Perhaps it is a word of kindness or encouragement that they can find a solution themselves and the parent will watch and support them in the process; that they will be there to catch them.

Only one of these parents understands that a young child cannot transmute its own energy because of its age, so the parent assists and teaches the child how to do so. As the years go on, the child learns that she can find her own solutions but is not scared to ask for help if needed because they know the parent will always offer support. There is no angst or self-inflicted guilt for needing help. The other parent pretends there are no problems, that the child itself is the problem, and that this instinctual desire for help should be beaten out of it because “no problems exist — only you are the problem.” In other words, the parent thinks if they pretend there is no problem, the child will learn there is no problem. And thus, nothing is ever transmuted or improved. It is only suppressed by way of denial.

Be wary of those who vibe high by ignoring problems. Be wary of those who do not want to utter the reality of what is happening in the world. Be wary of those who pretend everything will be fine if we just adopt a higher vibration. If they cannot go to the source of the pain, become it for a short time and change it, they are not accomplishing anything for the ascension of humanity. They are simply playing a part and asking you to do the same. And this is not how you resolve your karma.

As Christ showed us, you must first go into the pain, acknowledge it publicly, and then allow the narcs to “crucify” you as the source of the problem. Remember, they operate on the old system in which a sacrificial lamb is required to absolve too much negative energy. Those with Christ consciousness instinctively understand the new system in which you can solve the problem yourself. After they have destroyed the remnants of the pain, you will be born again into a new life in which the karma was resolved and you can step into your dharma — your true life’s path apart from the denial. They will think they deflected from the problem, but because you took the time to resolve it, you will win by naturally having a higher vibration that you don’t have to fake.