When narcissists write history, we must accept nothing as truth

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We’ve all heard it: “History is written by the victors”. In other words, when recording events between peoples, nations, and species, objectivity is rarely encouraged. There aren’t two, three, four, five hundred sides to the story — there is one: who won? Who overpowered? Who outwitted? Who controlled? Who convinced a majority of the veracity of their actions or cause? Not only are we indoctrinated into the white man’s version of history in nearly every educational discipline, we are taught to learn how the archetypal white man learns, and we are taught to think like the patriarchal system tells us to think. “Be the biggest, the best, the baddest, project innocence or a make it seem like we absolutely had to kill those people. We had to. We did it for our country. We secured our spot as top dog” and, “Be like the majority — or those who think they’re the majority. They project the energy of superiority and you want to be at the top like them.”

Projecting an heir of superiority because one group has overpowered another group, or because said group has strength in numbers is not the truth. I have said it before and I’ll say it again: groupthink is not the truth just because a majority of people believe it or enforce it. Groupthink is a tactic against the truth. Groupthink upholds the 3D karmic system so that the truth cannot be perceived or believed. Let me put it to you this way because it is seared into my psyche: I grew up in the Southern Baptist church whose leaders drilled stories about the Pharisees and Sadducees, two religious sects of Judaism common in the times of the recorded New Testament, into our worldview. These “fundamentalist” sects (as they were referred to) were in direct opposition to the truth of the gospel, we were told. The fundamentalists enforced rules and laws with no care for the truth of the human experience. Christ, on the other hand, claimed he came to overturn the laws in favor of, well, empathy and people-first principles which was immensely healing for his followers. We all know the Pharisees went on to test Christ through use of the law and encourage his crucifixion because of Christ’s radical information and otherworldly authority. He confronted death as a perceived thief, anarchist, and kook.

This meant very little to me until recently — until I saw beyond the guise of biblical teaching and saw into the cyclical patterns humans have always been engaged in. An abuse victim brings forward new information for the group to consider (“I have been abused. The person you think you know and love abused me and broke my mind, body and soul. Please help me and please rectify this situation”) only to be met with flying monkey abuse by proxy, brainwashing, and threats. “Liar, exaggerator, attention-seeking crazy person” they tell the victim. “What you think you saw, you didn’t. What you think you experienced, you didn’t. We’ll take everything away from you” they say (and they usually do). When enough people are convinced the victim cannot possibly know the truth, the truth is believed to be whatever the majority has enforced (aka: “you were not abused, and in fact, the group has been abused by your abuse claims. Instead of admitting to the abuse, we will abuse you further to prevent the truth from coming out”).

The overarching problem here is that humanity has been talked into the notion that there is no universal truth; that there cannot be one clear, distinct right and wrong separate from shifting tactics; that the truth lies in how many people believe a thing. That the truth is what the victor believes to be true because, certainly, the minority cannot know the truth — they are too “small” in comparison to the mob. If we take a step back and look at archetypal problems with recorded history, we see that only generations later do we learn that there is another story behind the official story line. That there are people oppressed, killed, and left destitute because of what the group has done to them. And that is if we are lucky. The minority by and large still has not had a chance, or a listening ear, to tell their real histories — and if they did, does anyone care to listen?

History as a noun is inherently narcissistic. As such, we cannot believe anything we have been taught at face value. We must dig deeper to uncover the other sides to the story. Because of our own indoctrination, we are lucky if we can perceive there to be at least one other side to the story, let alone hundreds. Too much information always causes a shut down of the ego. Too much data makes an egoic mind go haywire. To an ego, information must always be black and white, right and wrong in favor of the majority, no room for grey area or, ahem, empathy. Think about these things as you continue to ascend and deconstruct the recorded history of our planet. If narcissistic personalities have always recorded world event, is there anything we can trust as true? Or will it all be distortions of the truth? As such, do we really know anything about why we are here and what has transpired on Earth?


The 3 archetypal wounds all empaths share

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In my work doing Energy Readings, I illuminate for clients what their core wounds and life lessons are (among other fascinating things). These are evident based on your energy, the energy of those around you, your fears and phobias, your talents, your beliefs about yourself and the world, your history and experiences, the roles you seem to fall into, the things you dream about pursuing, and more. In other words, we all have our own unique wounds that are holding us back and keeping us sick. Once recognized and acknowledged, we can become fully self-actualized people, able to be and do whatever we like in order to fulfill our souls need for peace and longevity.

But there are also collective, long-standing archetypal wounds that all empaths share. These are the things you keep subconsciously avoiding by living smaller than you really are, adopting a false persona of sorts to keep others happy, which means you’ll never be able to live out your true wonderful purpose here. These three wounds are so deeply embedded into the empathic psyche that, until you have someone elucidate these subconscious belief systems and fears, you will truly go your entire life running from them. And they are “collective” because we all have them.

These fears stem from past life trauma, plain and simple. As I have said before, I would not have ever believed in the concept of past lives had I not had dramatic supernatural “remembrance” experiences in which I recognized strangers — and them, me. This is not something I can quantify to convince anyone. Once it happens to you, your whole world changes and everything you think you once believed about the nature of reality is stripped away, leaving you with a whole new perspective on the world.

Once I understood we have all been here many times before, the wounds I saw my clients carrying suddenly made so much more sense. They weren’t just running from unhealthy relationships in this lifetime. They weren’t just choosing dysfunction over order and direction. They were trying to avoid that which had happened in previous incarnations — because what had happened before left them dead, destitute, sickened, and alone. But as with everything in life, until you understand the system, you cannot understand the experiences. Until you see there is a greater rhyme and reason, you cannot make sense of the nonsense and bullshit you have lived — or why you are so fearful of things that have not yet happened in this incarnation.

As I’ve tried to convey again and again, the world and its people can be split into one of three categories: empaths, narcissists, and those who fall somewhere in the middle. Empaths and narcissists will always be at odds because empaths are here to preserve the planet and narcissists wish to destroy the biological technology and resources which would help future generations. Of course, few people know they’re acting this out because these desires reside deep within the subconscious mind. But a person’s actions and intentions (energy) will always show you which side they are on: do they make paths straight or do they inflict pain and chaos whenever possible? Up until this point, narcissists have relegated empaths to a status of subservience, and narcissistic personalities have taken positions of leadership all over the globe.

As such, empaths have had to play the offense and defense against narcs lifetime after lifetime. There are three subconscious, archetypal wounds all empathic people have learned to “avoid” by catering to narcissists. They include:

  1. The wound of seeing the veil. This means you feel guilty, weird, wrong, and ashamed that you are naturally able to differentiate between the 3-dimensional world and the world of spirit (the 5D). Even if you do not call it this, you know in your soul that there is the world we use to “get by”, pay bills, engage in entertainment, and work a job. Then there is also a world that resides in how you and others feel, how you know there is more to life than money, and how you want to help cultivate change for the better. You know there is more. This is an ability you have come to hide because you have seen in present and past lifetimes that the “seers” are mocked, shamed, and shunned — and sometimes put to death.
  2. The wound of the “mob”. This is the subconscious fear that if you expose or forgo groupthink, you will be at the mercy of punishment from the cognitive dissonance you have instilled in others. In other words, if you do not go along with the directives of “normalcy” that your group/community/family operates under, you will become the black sheep. And the black sheep always faces some sort of punishment for being different or exposing the unethical nature of the group.
  3. The wound of the gift. Empaths aren’t just highly sensitive people, able to feel and read the energy/intentions of those around them. They are also seekers, lightworkers, healers, and helpers. They are here to change the world. But because of the previous two wounds, we suppress our true intuitive nature in order to please others. What should be a natural ability becomes a dangerous secret we protect at all costs. Then, each time we face a situation that requires us to use our intuitive, healing nature, we go into hiding instead of activating it. Each time this happens, we become more stressed, sick, and ashamed of ourselves that we have this gift in the first place. Over time, our physical and emotional health suffers greatly — all because we have a gift that we feel we cannot use.

You see, these fears are your karma. When we think of karma, we think of punishment. But actually karma is all of the unresolved problems you have never dealt with so you are no longer tied to the past. In my experience, the only ways to overcome these subconscious collective fears is to confront them head on. This requires not only recognizing they are present to begin with, but also doing the opposite of them — acting on our gifts, allowing the mob to do what it wants, then rising above it all in the end. Yes, they will hate you — and get others to hate you. Yes they will take your money, your good name, your clout, your definition of self. But after you do so, you will come to find that no matter which fear tactic is thrown your way, you can indeed overcome them all. And you will no longer be scared or subconsciously hold yourself back from your true life’s path. You will step into your “I Am” presence, unaffected by the sabotage or judgment of others. You become free of karma. Only you get to define who you are.

Watch my Instagram video for more information on these three wounds and what you can do to overcome them.

Here’s why you’re the empath and not the narcissist — quiz

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Empathic people come to me with questions in Energy Readings. Which path should they take? What does this thing in their life mean? Were they correct in their assessment? Did they do the right thing? Is what they think they experienced really what they experienced? These kinds of queries will leave a person feeling defeated, confused, and directionless if left unanswered.

But one of the biggest questions I receive from empathic clients, by and large, is this: “am I the narcissist?” In a world where “narcissism” is a buzzword, it leaves an energetically sensitive person questioning their every intention: “I’m not perfect. Do I like to hurt people? Do I like to be the center of attention? What if I am not the empath?”

One of the unfortunate symptoms of narcissistic abuse is the abuser using emotional or mental manipulation in order to force the victim into thinking they themselves are the problem. They may outright tell you this, tell this to others, or they may insinuate you have some terrible personality flaw/disorder, which gives them permission to treat you as they do.

Please hear me when I say this: this tactic is a hallmark symptom of narcissistic abuse 99% of the time. It is rare to endure this sort of abuse and not be labeled as the problem. This serves many functions: 1. reinforcing the 3D karmic system, 2. giving the perpetrator more power and control through social dynamics and “flying monkey” abuse by proxy, 3. preventing you from ascending to your highest potential, and 4. prevents them from having any accountability for their actions. In other words, no one will believe a victim if everyone has been told the victim is not the victim.

In order to free yourself of the cognitive dissonance associated with wondering if you are in fact the narcissist in the situation, you must ask yourself these questions. Only you can answer them and the veracity is between you and your higher power. If you are 100% positive in your assessment of yourself, then you can be assured your conscience is clear.

  1. Do I secretly like to hurt people?
  2. Do I enjoy conflict?
  3. Do I always 100% of the time feel confident enough to speak my mind to people?
  4. Do I assess what could be the driving force behind someone’s behavior (ie: personal wounding)?
  5. Do I try to put myself in the other person’s shoes?
  6. Do I easily see how all things are connected by cause and effect?
  7. Do I rely on groupthink in order to help me determine my actions are correct?
  8. Do I feel I must abide by a higher power or set of higher expectations for myself, such as peace, justice, equality, honesty, and compassion?
  9. Do I enjoy making other people feel bad about themselves?
  10. Do I look forward to drama?
  11. Do I rally people in a group in order to put one person down?
  12. Do I like to remind other people of their inadequacies?
  13. Do I feel I will be judged by my higher self or higher power for my actions in this lifetime?
  14. Do I prefer there be no underlying conflict in relationships?
  15. Do I forgive once I understand why someone made the choice they did, or after they ask for my forgiveness?
  16. Do I know there is enough room for everyone to be successful?
  17. Do I like to see others shine, in addition to myself?
  18. Do I enjoy gossip or feel it provides the truth in a situation?
  19. Do I have to put others down to make myself feel better?
  20. Can I envision a world in which there is no hatred?
  21. Do I feel a need to hide my indiscretions?
  22. Do I feel the need to prove to people, coerce people, or convince people that I am not a narcissist?
  23. Do I constantly blameshift or hurt others first before anyone “finds me out”?
  24. Do I assess and re-assess a situation in order to see which information I could have missed that would lead me to the truth so that I do not make assumptions?
  25. Do I feel the pain of others so deeply that it begins to affect my physical or emotional health?
  26. Do I externalize my pain onto others in hopes that will get rid of it?

Questions 1, 2, 3, 7, 9, 10, 11, 12, 18, 19, 21, 22, 23 and 26 are narcissistic tendencies. Questions 4, 5, 6, 8, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 20, 24 and 25 are empathic tendencies that narcissists will never inherently possess — they will only project these qualities outwardly for others to see.

In these trying times, you must remember that sometimes the truth will only reside inside of your soul. There is no need to prove who you are — you are who you are. The judgment of your soul lies between you and your higher power or higher self. So long as you can go into the world confident that you do not enjoy harming others, you can be assured you are not the narcissist. This is a time of smoke and mirrors — remember this. The term narcissist will get thrown at people who are genuinely not narcissistic in order for others to elevate themselves. Say this to yourself in the mirror until it feels like truth: “I am that I am”.