Empathic people are ashamed of their true thoughts and beliefs. They hide these and try to blend in which makes them stressed and sick in the long run. Once you understand why you feel this way, you will be able to release the shame of being an inherently free thinker. The cause is usually also the solution.
You are not just scared of your beliefs being exposed because of how narcs punish you for not agreeing with them and upholding their version of reality. You are also scared because you cannot check a box. No boxes apply.
You contrast your beliefs with the socially acceptable options you have subconsciously been given. “Do any of these explain my beliefs?” you ask yourself and then become more ashamed that they do not and you cannot conform. You try to conform but it never feels like home. So you keep these secrets from everyone.
Maybe one day they come spilling out. Maybe they never do.
If the conclusions you have come to about life are believed by no one or perhaps few around you, it is not necessarily because you are wrong. Yes narcs will remind you of this groupthink and use this as leverage against you in order to force you back into submission.
But it is because they have all convinced themselves they’ve found their niche ideological box to check off because they don’t want to be punished for not fitting in.
There is no box to represent you. You must fill in the blank.
Are we truly encouraged to think freely or have we only been told that we are?
Are you permitted limitless thought or do you stop yourself from going any further because you’re not sure of the consequences?
Do you consider it odd that deep within the human psyche is the desire to be rescued? Is it strange that people pray to an invisible being in the sky to be rescued from their pain and hardship over and over again each day; to give them one good thing in a sea of suffering? Do we have any idea that we subconsciously want to be rescued in the first place? And what does this tell us about the status of life on earth anyway?
Recorded history shows us that human beings have been controlled by gods in one form or another for as long as people have been telling or writing their stories: Gods telling people what they can and cannot do. Gods punishing humanity for its disobedience. Gods rewarding humans like puppy dogs when they were “good” or loyal. All gods claim to be real, while some are called false. How could one keep up with so many various deities and discern their true intentions?
Over millennia, many prophets and teachers have risen up from the general population in order to bring us messages of escape. Their meanings and interpretations and messages may differ. But their underlying assumption is always the same: there is a system you didn’t know about; here is how you overcome that system. When you overcome that system, you escape.
Some humans choose to worship these leaders. Others choose to act and live like them. Some build statutes and tributes, some honor their messages through their actions.
If we take a step back from the “which prophet is right” game, we see that the underlying message is the same: “don’t you want to leave this place? Isn’t this place miserable? Don’t you want to go to the spiritual life after this physical life? Here’s what you have to do to get there,” they say.
And all of this begs the question: why would a heaven need such prophets and saviors? The answer is: it wouldn’t.
So what does that tell us about the nature of reality on earth? Why would a person need an escape route, a blueprint, a map?
Why would we have to be awoken to the fact that there is a system?
Why have some sacrificed their lives attempting to share this message? Why would they care?
Why would we need to be judged and controlled by gods in the first place? What kind of people are judged according to their every thought?
You only need an escape if you are trapped. You only need a map if you are lost. You only need a blueprint picture if you cannot clearly see. And you only need to be monitored and controlled if you are a prisoner.
What kind of planet needs a savior?
We’re taught from birth to pretend to be happy. It suits our parents or caregivers desires for control and creating a perfect image that society will accept or value. We are trained to ignore problems, or worse, punished for acknowledging then. Therefore, the conscious mind believes itself to be happy and we carry on in the world, emphasizing our supposed happiness, while ignoring the problems that are subconsciously making us sick.
The problems are the karma!
This means that most people will never get to the pain that signals to what actually needs to be resolved in order to finally be and feel free. They remain trapped and imprisoned.
Think back to the healings Christ performed. Those he healed with his “miracles” (aka energy work) were often societal outcasts or every day lay people who did not deny their pain or problems. The woman at the well, the father of the sick child, the leper. They came to him, or he came to them, but each admitted to the pain. They then placed their trust in his energy work and because they trusted it would work, they healed themselves — physically or spiritually.
Most would argue that Christ healed them. Of course in a great way, he did. But his efforts would mean nothing if they had not believed. If they had pretended everything was fine. It was a joint effort which first required admitting that they needed healing to begin with.
This is and always was the dichotomy between empaths and narcissists. One can admit to real pain. One pretends it is not there or falsely generates it to blame it on others. One can heal and one cannot.