Planet Earth: house of mirrors

Part of the spiritual ascension process (in which you absolve your karmic debt, right the wrongs in your life, shed the ego, choose the principle of the opposite to heal your core wounds and learn your life lessons, and begin a path towards your true life purpose) involves questioning the nature of reality. We are indoctrinated from day one in our earthly existence: believe this, ignore that, pretend that isn’t happening, look here, this is good, this is bad, do what I tell you. “This is the only truth” we are told, and anyone who is curious or dissatisfied enough to question this indoctrination will begin a lengthy process of shedding the old self, dying to the flesh, and understanding their true divine nature.

Once you embark on your life lessons (aka: stop pretending the problems aren’t there, stop sweeping them under the rug, and finally confront them), you will receive a big rude awakening that life is not what we have been told. In fact, it is nothing like what we have been told. “Go to school, get a good job, find someone to love, try to live a good life in which other people like and respect you” is no longer acceptable. “If you are a good person, you can have a good life”, “Problems happen to other people, not to me” and all other forms of blindness swiftly get removed. It is as if you have been living life with rose-colored glasses on and suddenly the lenses break. You see things for what they really are — not what you hope they are, or what you have been told they are.

Planet Earth is a place full of mystery and intrigue. Unrelated civilizations have “shown up”, risen and fallen, accomplished great feats, and suddenly disappeared. Earth is full of non-sequiturs, delayed progress, questions, and clues for us to piece together. There is no one accepted history of this place, and in fact different peoples and places have their own stories of origin, of the divine, and of our purpose here. We have been told to accept the mystery, that no one can possibly figure this place out; that it is beyond any one of our understandings and you should simply choose a side: God or no God, religion or no religion, evolution versus creationism — then cling to it as a backdrop to your life even if you are still full of questions.

Once you have come face to face with your own karma, you will suddenly understand how little sense all of this makes. You will come face to face with the egos of everyone around you, their projections and illusions, much like a house of mirrors. You see one thing but are told another. You get nudged into the truth but are talked out of it. You lose what you once thought you could hold firmly in your hand. You see people doing one thing but saying another. You share the truth of your experiences but are ignored or told you are exaggerating. “What is even real here?” you will wonder.

As you question these things, it will become evident that few are doing so. If you are reading this or have happened upon this post, you are one of the people questioning and I commend you. We have been told in so many words that only philosophers and poets long deceased can question such ideas. That only they deserve to. That they may now be venerated and respected. But the modern sojourner who asks the same things may be told they are out of touch with reality, negative, or disconnected. They may be told they are being pessimistic by recognizing or being curious about the nature of reality. “Why aren’t you grateful?”, “what aren’t you thankful?”, “you need to be more positive”, “look how great this place is” they are told.

Here is what is considered normal in society and once you question it further, it becomes apparent it is entirely unhealthy. Once you have admitted to these things, you must then ask why they are transpiring:

You are discouraged from questioning the nature of reality or from deciding the nature of reality is different from what you have been taught. If you believe differently than the “postage stamp consensus”, you are written off.

It’s an unspoken rule that you never upset a narcissist, so you go about appeasing their ego your entire life.

Narcissists do things to gain your trust (fake love, attachment, and the old “I’m so much like you” line even when their actions truly differ) so you trust their version of reality.

Narcissists in your circle never reflect your reality back to you (your emotions, feelings, experiences) but talk you out of it.

You are forced to deny the abuse/problems in your life to appease others’ versions of reality. Only when you become utterly sick and fed up will you fight for yours.

You face judgment or punishment if you try to ascend into higher spiritual realities (peace, love, harmony). (Ie: “you’re so weird”, “you’re so different”, “you hippie”, “I don’t get you anymore”).

You are shamed for your feelings so you can’t trust yourself (ascension requires feeling because the 5th dimension is about feelings via intuition).

Parents, religion, and the educational system imposes an ego on children from a young age, leaving them unable to tap into the metaphysical world.

The ego acts like a loudspeaker in the back of the mind, reminding people how terrible they are.

People end their lives just to get away from this plane of existence.

Narcissists and the powers that be choose ways of operating that only cause more problems later (entropy = insanity), and anyone who comes up with solutions gets marginalized. (In the sectors of climate change/control, education, hunger and poverty, crime and recidivism, war, etc.)

We are fed food and water with chemicals poisons in them.

Diversity is mocked or punished. You are put at a natural disadvantage if you cannot be standardized.

Peoples are pitted against each other for differences in beliefs and ways of living.

Abuse is ignored.

Abuse is so prevalent, it is considered normal.

Metal health problems are a global epidemic.

Metaphysics is mocked as unproven, despite every genius who has contributed something major to our society proclaiming it as their bedrock and source of inspiration.

The people who observe and report basic cause and effect are considered weird or paranoid. (Ie: “you’re making a big deal out of nothing”)

We are told no one knows why we are here.

Entertainment and stress are used as forms of distraction.

Speaking out is considered taboo and brings punishment or great shame onto any whistle-blowers.

Early adopters are often neutralized (Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., etc. )

Advancement of science is continually held back. Solutions are not implemented. New research takes decades to work its way into doctors offices, businesses, government, and the people.

I want to encourage you to keep asking yourself about what this place is, its many mysteries, the cryptic half-answers ancient peoples have left behind, and why no one has figured it out yet. Why progress is stymied. Why societal change is mocked and punished. You are capable of figuring it out. But in order to do so, you must accept the truth. The truth lies behind the glass-paned house of mirrors, behind the veil, behind the curtain. Peer behind it. What does all of this lead you to believe?

Low vibe shit: the primary purpose of gossip

Years ago I had a “frenemy” (she’s now been cut off) who started gossiping about a mutual acquaintance as I pushed my daughter on the swing at a park and watched her children play in the distance. I heard all sorts of terrible things about this third party — she cheated with a married men with four children in a church community and everyone knew about it. I listened and nodded, not sure what to do with this information. My frenemy went on further to explain why she was telling me this info and why it was healthy: “gossip serves a function, you know. It’s a protective measure in society,” she said.

I wasn’t sure how I felt about this friend’s evolutionary assessment of gossip but I sat with it for years. It left me with questions. Was she right? Could gossip act as a warning system of sorts to prevent future problems? Or are we really just overgrown monkeys who pick on the weakest link without asking them outright what the truth is? Why do we think things are so cut and dry? After the gossip has already spread down its many streams and tributaries of circles of friends and family, would we believe the truth if we were confronted with it anyway? It wasn’t until I watched her enjoy participating in much more gossip over the years that ruined people’s lives that I saw how wrong she was. She had thought her argument over well and she had created a moralistic cause for her bad habit, a way to defend the slander, just in case someone called her out on it or didn’t like it. For her, it was right and ethical to assume the worst without asking for the other side of the story.

Let me tell you this: as an empath, you can tell who the low-vibers are by how they speak about other people. There will likely be a good deal of hiding and secrecy surrounding their behind-the-scenes word-of-mouth — and that’s because subconsciously, they know it isn’t healthy. Subconsciously, they know they should be ashamed. But because nasty gossip gives narcissists a feel good peptide high physically, it bonds them and cements ties, so they keep doing it — to get closer to each other, for power and control, and to control the whole group dynamic.

From a 5D perspective, gossip serves many purposes. As I said above, it allows for control. This means it creates a groupthink that would cause a great deal of cognitive dissonance for anyone seeking the truth to have to face. Only brave souls face cognitive dissonance once it’s already been accepted as fact. If you are one of those brave souls, you also know that you risk your own proverbial crucifixion if you side with someone the group has already deemed “untouchable”. It creates a dynamic in which people are confused what the truth is, don’t want to seek it out, don’t want to forgive or give people the benefit of the doubt, seek further answers, and it infects everything in its vicinity with low vibrational muck.

When an entire group of people is stuck in a low vibrational energy, it becomes damn near impossible for them to accomplish anything for the greater good, for the divine, and to ascend into higher spiritual realities. It becomes chains binding everyone into a false reality that benefits no one but the narcissists. Bottom line: gossip is low vibe and not healthy.

Please know, there is a difference between being a whistle-blower because shit is downright unethical and telling people directly about how this is affecting you or others, versus spreading information without addressing people themselves or asking what the other side of the story is. (Because there is always another side to the story, even if parts of the juicy gossip are true). There is a difference in righteous communication and shedding light on evil (hello, #metoo) versus getting high on lies in dark corners and back alleys with other addicts where nothing constructive can come from it.

Personally, I would avoid these kinds of people or call that shit out on the spot. I have learned that catering to these people’s devious preferences only causes pain in the long run, and prevents anything metaphysical from manifesting. Love cannot exist in the presence of intense, infectious hatred. Progress can not exist in the presence of incessant entropy. Understanding and empathy cannot exist in the presence of half-truths. As always, the choice is yours based on the situation.

How past life energies are carried within us and how to clear them

Like all information I share with you, this is both a channeled message and an experience. You see, the traditional learning model of stock, standardized memorization has go to go. It doesn’t help cultivate intuition because intuition is developed through experiential living combined with splashes of spontaneous inspiration (“eureka” moments), combined with confirmation. I can’t remember half of what I learned in middle school and high school but I remember how I felt at the time.

I live and process information, then present you with what I have tested myself. If it works, I share it with you. The scientific method. The kind of information I share is not always something that can be confirmed with empirical data or bell curves (something the toxic masculine system loves so much). Instead, it must be confirmed in your body, mind, heart and soul. It must feel true for you (maybe at first a little, but then it becomes a lot), it must intrigue you, it must leave you with questions, then it must work for you as you put it into practice. It must be an experience, not just numbers or lines on a page. You must feel it in your bones. That’s when you know it is true. You do not need to persuade anyone else it is true because they will require evidence. And the way you feel will never be enough evidence for them. Test these things out for yourself. Does it make you happier and healthier? If so, then you can stop feeling silly for entertaining these ideas and implement them already.

This brings me to my point. You are not just a sum total of your life experiences; you are also the sum total of the energetic residues you have carried over from past lives. And in order to resolve your karma, be happy and healthy, and lead a fulfilling life in which you own your purpose, you must relinquish all ties to the past energies. Sure, you can do the sage, you can do to retreats, you can see a Reiki healer. None of those are terrible and they sometimes help. But I live by the “you can teach a man to fish” philosophy which means please, do this for yourself.

Here’s how energetic residue works: your subconscious mind is clinging to past energies in the form of feelings/emotions/beliefs and tensions in your physical body. They are operating in the backdrop to your life so you have not recognized or felt them thus far. It is a bit like a computer with all sorts of programs running in the background. You minimize the tabs but they are still there. After a while it causes your device to operate much more slowly, you can’t perform basic functions or have to wait minutes at a time before you perform the next function. It feels slow, heavy, and annoying.

So too are your subconscious ties to the past. They have you operating at a slower, less healthy level of living. For them to continue dragging you down, you must never acknowledge their presence. For you to be rid of them finally, you must acknowledge they are there then “close the tabs” or tell them to leave.

Here’s what you do:

Get into some form of a meditative state. After you shed much of your ego, this will come so easy that you won’t need assistance. But if you do, then meditate, get into that state right before you fall asleep, use herbs or natural remedies, etc. to relax you.

Locate the tension in your body. Ask where it came from. Your higher self or higher power will usually connect you to the source. It will be a limiting belief system or trauma.

Accept the trauma or pain, feel it and why it is there. Whether it makes sense for this lifetime or not doesn’t matter. Determining when it came to you also doesn’t matter. As you develop this skill, you will be able to determine which lifetime it was from, but it’s not clear at first.

Then consciously push it out, tell it to leave, see you don’t need it anymore, etc.

Feel it leave your body. Feel your chakras more open and vibrant. Feel more energetic and less heavy.


Do this over and over until you feel less tense, less triggered, and more clear.

You see, past energies will only call you home if you allow it on a subconscious level. Once you identify and vacate them, you will not carry an energetic resonance that fits their profile. You will no longer be a compatible host. This means guilt, fear, shame, anger, resentment, pain, etc. will no longer be able to house themselves in a vessel that doesn’t vibe on their level.

Test if for yourself. Let go of the cognitive dissonance that it is weird because only you can feel its efficacy. It works if you trust.